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now this is really weird........

i was abt to go to sleep, said good nite to sheng and closed my eyes.....

till the image of my aunty and ke-pa pop into my head out of a sudden....i have no idea y but i started missing them so much i cried so much i never cried like this since the day she died.

aunty and ke-pa were like my parents. they were my babysitters who took care of me till i was 9. i was so attached to them when i was younger i wasn't even close to my own parents. by as i grew up and moved back into my parent's hse, i started to grew apart from them. n when they moved to kl to live with their working daughter, we didn't seem to keep in contact much anymore. i remembered promising myself that i would give them some monthly allowance one day when i start working.....bad news came and aunty was diagnosed with colon cancer. she eventually passed away. i can still remember seeing her thin fragile body when we visited her in kl abt a few months before she died. 4 months after she passed on, ke-pa passed away as well....

i was crying so badly just now i couldn't stand it but to get out of bed wanting to blog abt my sudden emo-ness.....i checked back my previous blog under friendster to read abt the post i wrote on the day i received the news. and was shocked....aunty died on the 6th of July 2006... today is 6th of July 2010. exactly 4 years later....i can't believe the coincidence here....was it pure coincidence? or did some bizarre and weird force of nature happened here??

really, i am not creating any story or anything....it really happened right before i went to sleep. all of sudden the thought of them came out and i started missing them so much.....i cried buckets of tears..am still crying now =(

4 years is a long time, and lots had happened. i'm abt to graduate in abt 3 months....i thought it was stress causing all my sudden outburst just now...but apparently not. i know both of them are in a happy place....i just wished i had the chance to repay them and take care of them. although they are not related by blood to me and my sis, we owe them tons for loving us like their own daughters.

this post is for my aunty's 4th year death anniversary. will always love and remember both u and ke-pa forever.