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how can i love n hate him at the same time???

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these are a few of my thoughts and questions that has been bothering me since the beginning of 2010....

another year had passed n i have 10 months exactly to figure out what i want in my life b4 the end of my third year....

What should i do after i am finished with my undergraduate studies??? be content with my humble degree cert...or proceed on to postgraduate studies??
at this point, i'm so tired of studying ==" n so tired of uni life....but by doing Masters i can actually secure a more stable and brighter future....

which leads to this question........
where should i do my postgraduate studies?? locally or outstation??
should i stay in msia after i'm finished with my Masters???

i know for a fact that with a degree cert from UTAR, there's no way that i'll get a job elsewhere other than in Msia. n i'm quite sure that even if i have a Masters from UTAR, i wont' be able to get a job in other countries...what to do?? UTAR so so nia ==".....not one of those top class private universities which offers twinning programmes and certs from other 'ang-moh' universities....so, unless i do my postgrad in canada or germany (which my mum wants me too, i dunno y =="), i'll be in msia for the rests of my life....but, i ain't got no $$$ to go so far leh....if i do, i wouldn't be studying here d la.....

mum always remind me of the fact that malaysian chinese will suffer tremendously in the future!!!! all the oppression and unequality will become worst in the future... better escape before it's too late she'll say............BUT hor, i love msia leh...penang in particular....how leh??? if only penang gets its own independence from msia and become an independent country by itself =D how wonderful is that???

and.....
is he the one???
we r like heaven n earth, totally opposites of one another and yet, we clicked with one another so well. it's amazing that i fell in love with him as when i was younger, i'd always imagine that my future bf/husband/soulmate would be a smart, intelligent, handsome, rich and so totally charming. he's different from what i imagined him to be...he's dorky n silly, really dumb n damn blur...well, at least he is charming in his own ways =.=".....we've been together for almost 3 years n i love every minute of it...somehow i think that if i follow my mum's advise n settle down elsewhere, he wouldn't follow me...he has his obligations to his parents as he's the only child....so if that's the case, should i be dragging this any further??? i wouldn't want to waste his time =( i know i'm selfish this way............

..............................................those r the long-term questions i need to figure out by november 2010....


as for my short-term question...........
SHOULD I GO BACK PENANG THIS WEEKEND?????
i want to...but i have stupid classes till 7pm on friday n the last bus is at 5pm.... also i'm having 2 lab reports to complete leh...FML la...

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hey there....i know i've been MIA...sorry =(

i've been MIA during my 3-months of sem break...my penang friends kept asking me for a gathering n yet i did nothing....coz i basically was too tired to do anything after work each day =.="...bleh! lazy me!!

n i lost contact with all my coursemates coz i did not have any internet connections...i went back Pg n my parents had already cancelled the internet line as we were abt to move....n when we had already moved, the TMNet idiots took such a long time just to set up everything for us....btw, i moved to Balik Pulau =.="

so this is the 1st week of my final year...it's FYP year n that my dear, equals to DEATH!!!!! =.=' okla...i know some of u might be complaining...

'y u so lucky wan. u dun have to do ur FYP project all throughout this sem...ur FYP starts in May, which is during the sem break. n it only lasts for abt 1 week nia. nt fair la.....' hehhe...i admit. i might not have to slave myself in the lab during the whole sem...but this means that i have less time to do my thesis n project in the final sem...die lo that time =.='

it's not that i chose to do so...i picked a project which involves me going to the forests n so, it involves me being there for 7-9 continuos days. thus, i can only do that during the sem break in May =.="

Week 1 was tiring........not tired of the classes. more like being tired waiting for the classes to start.....the weather here is so hot.....i swear to God, standing under the sun for 2 minutes will give u a minor sunburn =.="

uni social life reminds me of high school....in fact it's worst than high school. i won't say much..but let's just put it this way.....cliques happen...

haiya....i dun have anything to blog about liao laaaa... nothing interesting going on in my life...n so nothing to talk or brag about....

TATAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!1

p.s: next door hse so noisy....y renovate now!!!!!!!! ppl need to study u know....hahaha. as if la =.="

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

sorry for the 3-month dissapearance....i know i haven't been updating as much as i should..i was enjoying my holidays..hehehe

anyways, i'm now living in balik pulau...which is this 'ulu' place at the 'forgotten' corner of penang island. *sigh*....such a boring n quite place, it almost remind me of kampar....no entertainment, no good food =(

3rd year of uni will start in 5 days...something that i'm not looking forward to at all...assignments, FYP, quizzes, stress and home-sickness....blehhhhhhh......

i've cut off 6 inches of my hair....n am looking more like a watermelon now...i've put on weight for the past 3 months...no regrets though =D

............ermm..........nothing else to write...


till then.....tata!!!