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these are a few of my thoughts and questions that has been bothering me since the beginning of 2010....

another year had passed n i have 10 months exactly to figure out what i want in my life b4 the end of my third year....

What should i do after i am finished with my undergraduate studies??? be content with my humble degree cert...or proceed on to postgraduate studies??
at this point, i'm so tired of studying ==" n so tired of uni life....but by doing Masters i can actually secure a more stable and brighter future....

which leads to this question........
where should i do my postgraduate studies?? locally or outstation??
should i stay in msia after i'm finished with my Masters???

i know for a fact that with a degree cert from UTAR, there's no way that i'll get a job elsewhere other than in Msia. n i'm quite sure that even if i have a Masters from UTAR, i wont' be able to get a job in other countries...what to do?? UTAR so so nia ==".....not one of those top class private universities which offers twinning programmes and certs from other 'ang-moh' universities....so, unless i do my postgrad in canada or germany (which my mum wants me too, i dunno y =="), i'll be in msia for the rests of my life....but, i ain't got no $$$ to go so far leh....if i do, i wouldn't be studying here d la.....

mum always remind me of the fact that malaysian chinese will suffer tremendously in the future!!!! all the oppression and unequality will become worst in the future... better escape before it's too late she'll say............BUT hor, i love msia leh...penang in particular....how leh??? if only penang gets its own independence from msia and become an independent country by itself =D how wonderful is that???

and.....
is he the one???
we r like heaven n earth, totally opposites of one another and yet, we clicked with one another so well. it's amazing that i fell in love with him as when i was younger, i'd always imagine that my future bf/husband/soulmate would be a smart, intelligent, handsome, rich and so totally charming. he's different from what i imagined him to be...he's dorky n silly, really dumb n damn blur...well, at least he is charming in his own ways =.=".....we've been together for almost 3 years n i love every minute of it...somehow i think that if i follow my mum's advise n settle down elsewhere, he wouldn't follow me...he has his obligations to his parents as he's the only child....so if that's the case, should i be dragging this any further??? i wouldn't want to waste his time =( i know i'm selfish this way............

..............................................those r the long-term questions i need to figure out by november 2010....


as for my short-term question...........
SHOULD I GO BACK PENANG THIS WEEKEND?????
i want to...but i have stupid classes till 7pm on friday n the last bus is at 5pm.... also i'm having 2 lab reports to complete leh...FML la...