Num 122

when will this thing called 'cancer' stop interfering with my life...

no, i don't have cancer.

but i just found out a few days ago that another person that i truly love has cancer...

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again!!!

throughtout my 23 years of existence, i've received this news 3 times!!!

my mum survived cancer =) coz she's young and strong....but my aunty (babysitter/god-mum) did not =(

and now it's her turn....judging from her age, i really dunno if she would survive it =(
i'd always thought that she would live to a ripe age of 99 and die of natural causes.
and i can't bare to go home to visit her coz it would kill me so much i might break down there and then....but not visiting her would make me an unfaithful/ungrateful/mean person...

from what i wrote, some u might guess how this person is related to me..

i have so much in my head, i woke up today with the worst headache ever!

there's nothing i can do but to keep myself occupied right now...

Num 121

first of all i would to apologise in advance because what u r about to read is again another post of me getting frustrated and angry over a group assignment....

so, i've spent my whole day editing my group's assignment yesterday. going through shitty grammar and lousy sentences. i don't mind doing this part, coz that's what editing is about right???

but then, wat i got from them...total nonsense.

1. uncomplete work...so instead of editing, i ended up doing their part...how should i put this?? er....'got head, no tail'....so i ended up writing the 'tail' part...=="

2. capital letters and full stops!!!!! capital letters and full stops!!!!!! CAPITAL LETTERS AND FULL STOPS!!!! these are simple common things....and some couldn't even be bothered to put in a capital letter and a full stop....==" hello, all u have to do is press a key or two on the keyboard. i don't need unnecessary work like adding in capital letters and full stops just because they are lazy to press 'caps lock'.

3. i did as much as i could. using my effort and precious time to edit, writing extra, putting all the pieces together....and what i requested was for them to help me do the cover page and help in printing out the assignment. that's all right??? simple and easy....guess what???
mistakes on the cover page =="'

haiz...i was speechless and at that point, i was totally dissapointed. i spent my whole night trying to make the assignment better, when i could've done my own thesis instead. i corrected mistakes and grammar errors, and hell...even added capital letters and full stops!!!

so i thought, simple cover page nia ma......no way they can do mistake on that ma.....i was wrong apparently... coz some ppl couldn't be bothered to double check before printing....it only takes a few seconds of ur life to scan through the cover page, spot the mistake, and correct it. the least u can do compared to the amount of work i did!!!!

some might say....haiya, nvm la....a bit nia ma........that's not the point!!! the point is they rely too much on others and do not show any effort at all....they knew i would pick up their shit and clean it....and so, they shitted everywhere so that i can continue cleaning up the shit....i can't take it when ppl take me for granted.

we passed up the assignment earlier today. i didn't want to look at the final printed copy at all!!!
thank god it's the final group assignment i'll ever do in my uni life.... after today, the only shit i have to clean up is my own and chloe's!!!!

to coursemates of mine who are reading this....i'm sorry for being such a bitch for the last 3 years! i can't help it but to be like this.....i was born with this obssesive-compulsive thing when it comes to doing my work. don't believe me...ask my secondary schoolmates....i used to cut small pieces of white papers and stick them on whatever mistakes i had instead of using liquid papers =="

Num 120

this is really fu*ked up la...........

i have no time for my thesis and yet i have to edit the group assignment....

i don't mind actually to edit........

but when i c the work they did, i get so frustrated!!!!!

i'm abt to cry now!!!!

seriously???? is that all???

i know the assignment is only 8 pages maximum, but it doesn't give us the right to slack off........

please la........it's 40% of my final grades for that subject k...

u guys may be smart but i rely on my asisgnments to score in the subject....

and thanks to u guys, i don't think i can do well in this fu*king assignment anymore....

some of u may read this, but then again i don't care.

u guys cost me my 40%!!!!!

T.T

stress is really getting on me.......

ps: dude, copy and paste is not even an option la....it's so obvious that u copied and paste....i kept my mouth shut because this is the last group assignment. thank god it's the last sem...

Num 119

i have tons of things to do and yet when i c this shitty work, i become so effing pissed off!!!!!

thank god it's the last sem.....

grrrrrrrrrrrr............

Num 115

as usual when i'm in an irritated mood, i'll blog..............

the one and only way to vent out....go elsewhere if u don't wanna read this...

i mean who needs a laptop and a netbook at the same time???

apparently his dad bought him a netbook, 2 months after his dad bought him a laptop...which he is slowly paying back every month........i think it's so not necessary and a waste of money....

it's their lives, not mine...what can i do??? i say what i have to say already, and he didn't even try to stop the dad from buying it....

daddy's boy is truly blessed...and spoilt to the max!!!

at this age, he should be buying the dad something and not the other way around...

-fin-

Num 112

i'm too bz to blog these days..and not to mention...lazy

arghhhhhhhhhhhh......
WTH....my graduation present/november HK holidays has been downgraded to Sg T.T

i feel like kicking somebody in the arse......any takers??

my HK trip ah T.T..............T.T we were about to book the flight tickets in a matter of days and sheng had already made his passport..........and then we got the 'news'...jeng jeng jeng...

all because of sheng's friend whose wife suddenly decided to waste RM8000++ on a stupid slimming programme....and now they r on a tight budget and couldn't afford to go to HK anymore....

stupid ppl....just because of ur fat wife, 5 other ppl had to cancel their plans.....

i know i know, some might ask y can't we just go along with the plan without the two of them....

well, they are a bunch of good friends so much so that if one decided not to go, the rest wouldn't go either....so, me, as a 'supporting actress', was dragged into the hole as well....T.T


FML la.....

Num 110

i dunno what to do right now!

so dissapointed of myself. the more expectations i put on myself the worst i become. this is probably the worst ever. infact, it can't get any worst than this. yes, i'm so ashamed of myself i'm afraid to even write abt this 'thing' on my blog.

i dunno what to do at all!

when everyone else are getting better, i'm getting from bad to worst. i thought i was good at what i was doing or at least an above average person. well, it turns out that i'm not. i'm way way below average. i worked so hard and nothing seems to ever pay off for me.

mum, dad i'm so sorry!!!! if only u guys knew!

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it's f-ing painful to come back here (kampar) today with a dissapointed heart and low morale to start off my final sem. i didn't manage to see him yesterday due to a stupid heavy rain at balik pulau. no comforting hugs from him. no 'it's gonna be ok. everything will turn out fine dear' pep-talk from him. so yea, here i am abt to explode anytime, wishing i have someone i love next to me to comfort me when i'm down.

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i'll have to face the harsh reality tomorrow!
=(

Num 108

PLEASE DON' T READ!!!!! it's just a post on me complaining.........
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it's a norm that i ramble and complain excessively during the exam seasons =.="

but seriously, i should kill myself here and now....

it wasn't the most difficult paper....it was actually quite okay with the exceptions of a few difficult questions here and there.....

argghhhhhhhhhhhhhh......but i wasted some stupid marks away....

A = Q4 was easy!!! but i couldn't manage to finish the last part T.T so there goes my 4 marks

B = my incomplete/imperfect answers for other Q4 parts (due to me rushing like hell during the last 5 minutes)

C = questions i dunno how to answer at all

A+B+C = not good!!!!!!!

how am i suppose to pull my cgpa up leh???

if the paper was difficult, i wouldn't be so hard on myself.....but it was actually a do-able paper so go die la angie ng!!!

5 more minutes....an additional 5 more minutes would make me a happier girl right now T.T

y is it that science papers only have an allocation of 2 hours while the other business/ elective papers are 2 1/2 hours?? so unfair T.T

Num 106

it's confirmed.......i'm not meant to be in the science field =(

i know i complained tons of times before about this already, but the results i got today justified everything i felt previously =="

i'm always clueless about all the new researches in science...in fact, i have more knowledge and interests in non-science related fields i.e. arts, social science and business....and err.... entertainment =P

haiz...how leh...if there's not much passion how to do masters leh =="

get a bachelor of sciences in biotech then do MBA lolz....as if la i'm so capable *sigh*

Num 105

at last, i finally have some time to breathe, read news, and blog...

i found this news a few minutes ago and seriously think that the guy that kena extorted is stupid...

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/4/15/nation/6056857&sec=nation

what grown man in his 30s doesn't even know how to masturbate??

so naive to believe meh??

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also..... read this

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/4/15/nation/6055104&sec=nation

of all possible locations, the porno film was shot at taman negara...

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Num 102

i thought that this is gonna be a long long post...

with lots n lots of ramblings and cursings....but it turns out that i was stupid =="

but u've got to read this...

http://nose4news.wordpress.com/2010/03/25/tnb-to-sue-wwf-over-earth-hour/

i spent abt 1 hour writing a post regarding the news article above...i commented on every single statement of his....i was pissed off!!!! totally going ballistic...

till i realized that i'm actually very stupid and naive....the news is not credible at all....lolz..

wasted my whole hour writing abt something that is all made up....boo hoo to that website for making me all revved up and crazy...

i should've known that such a large conglomerate like TNB would not give statements like this, apatah lagi a CEO =.="

if this news is fake then i feel so sorry for the blogger coz he has nothing better to do but to create lies to entertain us =).....however, if this news is real, then TNB should go DIE la....

arrghhhhhhhhh...my 1 hr went poof *dissapears into thin air*.....

i gotta go clean my floor....my guest is coming in abt an hour or so =D

Num 80

i'm gonna cry...i swear i'm gonna cry.....................

my group assignment marks for CC was so horrible i'm gonna cry......T.T....n to know that it could have been done better makes me wanna cry more.......if the assignment marks was better i could have gotten such a better coursework marks.......

55/100.........what the hell rite??? abt half??? while other groups gotten as high as 92.5/100!!!! i've always done well in assignments n to know that i have no control over this one kills me.....elective subjects are always easy to score, but i guess it's not happening in this case.....

that is why i HATE group assignments...no offense to my fellow coursemates reading this =.="..... but when it comes to group reports, ppl tend to put in less effort...i've seen it lots of times before.....they do their part n submit everything to the group leader....n when u have a not-so-responsible leader, u just know that the whole assignment is going to flop.......

i actually knew that the assignment wasn't gonna be the best when they submitted it.....i didn't have a chance to look at the final work n when i kept asking the leader to let me have a look at it and edit the grammar, sentences and etc, he failed to pass it to me....i waited many days....till late at night the day before submission btw.....but alas, i went to bed frustrated as i recieved NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was actually so frustrated at that time, i wanted to blog abt it.... but i didn't coz what has been done has been done..................BUT AT THIS SHITTY MOMENT, I'M SO PISSED OFF N FRUSTRATED U HAVE NO IDEA!!!!!!

i'm a control freak....n when there's something that i can't control, i'll be very frustrated n very annoyed coz i basically trust no one but myself.....n to know that i could have helped to make the assignment better but didn't have a chance to do so kills me so much i want to stab myself to death right now......it's one of those things where u know u can make it so much better but was not given an oppurtunity to do so!!!!! as a result i got this stupid shitty marks for my CC assignment while pulls down my whole coursework marks.............which means it's harder to get A for a usually-easy-to-score-elective subject..........

FML!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Num 79

lab reports -------no more
quizzes, mid-terms-----------bye bye
assignments----- tata
finals---------HELLO!!!!!!!! =.="

i feel so free right now =) weeeeeeeee..........i'm going to have fun n eat lotz n lotz of yummy food this weekend...who cares abt growing fat.....=P

but at the same time, i'm totally worried abt my FYP...still no reply from Dr.Han....some of my coursemates have gotten their 1st choice tittles d....i'm so afraid that if i dun get my 1st choice, i'll end up getting the 5th or 6th one..n i wouldn't want that...=(

life is really unfair sometimes........i have a friend, Z, who works his/her ass off...Z is so damn hardworking, smart, etc n yet Z couldn't get the title Z really really wanted....plus Z's really independent.......n by independent i mean Z does his/her own work without depending on others....no copying, no relying on others ppl's work n stuff..........yet the lecturer ended up choosing someone else n Z is totally bummed out....i know i would also feel the same if i was in Z's shoes....

anyway, it's the lecturer's loss...coz she's abt to have a major headache next year.....

NUM 75

FML TOTALLY FML TO THE MAX!!!!!! FML TILL KAO KAO!!!!

to those ppl that say good things come to those that work hard...........i say BULLSHIT la!!!!!!!!!

yea...good things do come to SOME ppl who work hard........

except for one particular person........who slave off her big-fat ass n study till late at nite n wake up early to continue....do tons n tons of practise questions.....n was so confident she could do it!!!!!! but alas, she ended up feeling like she just fell into a deep stinking monsoon drain.......

FML la...................how can a person be so sure she can do it n when she does it, it all comes falling down.......yup, that's me!!!!!! the big-fat ass girl...good for nothing n just wasting the Earth's oxygen....=.="

anyway...another shitty news comes on the same day...FYP titles coming out tmr.....n i dun even know what i'm gonna do......but even if i do know, i'll obviously be the last person on earth that the lecturers will choose..............

want know y???

COZ I'M BASICALLY INVISIBLE, THAT'S WHY!

THANKS TO MY LOUSY NAME....WHICH NO LECTURER CAN EVER REMEMBER!!! WHO THE HELL CAN REMEMBER SUCH A COMPLICATED NAME LIKE

NG YUET HUI!!!!!

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YEA....lecturers tend to forget my name often.........coz most ppl can't even pronounce it in a proper way...heck, even i have difficulties saying that name.........next time if i have a kid, i swear on my fat-ass that i'm gonna give him/her such a unique name that ppl will remember it..........names like Hercules, or Athena, or Doraemon!!! maybe Pikachu!!! WTF!!!!

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ok la...normal christian names will do la.......just make sure the name is in the birth cert...

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n u wanna know wat else?? i'm not the smartest or the prettiest or the most stand-out person in class....nor do i have tons of questions to ask the lecturers during class.....n i dunno how to talk n impress the lecturers coz my range of words are limited WTF!!! ...........i dun even know how to bodek....bodek skills very important k.......

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so how the hell am i gonna get to do the FYP that i want????? everyone wants tissue culture, so do i....no one wants those molecular based FYP. hell, i dun want it either....i can't do molecular based subjects....i suck at it big time!!!!...everyone's gonna go after the same few lecturers... so, the lecturers will have the option to choose who they want.......n rest assure, i'll be the last person they would ever pick!!!

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before u go ahead n think that i'm not appreciating my life n bla bla should be grateful n bla bla should work harder bla bla bla bla think positive............words are easier said than done....ur life may be perfect now....but mine isn't!!!!

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IT SUCKS!!!!!

even schumacher can't make me smile right now!!!!

Num 73

when u first meet a person, first impression counts.......i admit i do often judge a person by the very first impression....

but once u get to know the person, the true colours come out......n i mean cooooooooooooooooooooooooomeeeeeeeesssssssssssss OUT......

BAM!!!!!


right in front of ur face.......

it irritates me when i think abt these ppl......but then again others might think the same abt me....i might not know rite?

haiya...watever la.....waste my energy getting all irritated abt it....
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on another note, i miss home!!!! i miss him!!!! it has been 19 long days...........



p.s : for the past few days i've been eating one meal per day only.....too much work to do, no time to eat..... well, at least i can lose some weight from all these never-ending workload......*sigh* i want Curry mee!!!!

Num 60-------READ THIS!!!!!

what has gone wrong with humans these days........

read this......http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/7/5/nation/4260041&sec=nation

it's heart-wrenching.....what did these ppl do to get this kind of treatment?? they r just humans like us, maybe they r disabled but they don't deserve this at all.....

FUCK THOSE STUPID PPL WHO DID THIS TO THEM!!!!!!!!

i've dun usually use the 'word'...but this is a special occasion....

may the ppl who did this to them rot in hell kao kao!!!!!!!!

Num 58

NO RAINBOW N NO BUTTERFLIES HERE!!!!

ANGIE IS IN A BAD MOOD!!!!

GET AWAY AS FAR AS U CAN!!!!!!
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FML!!! FML!!!! FML!!!! FML!!!

WHAT A "GREAT" START TO MY DAY!!!!!

STUPID BUS SERVICES!!!!

I'M NEVER EVER GONNA ASK FOR HELP COZ NO ONE EVER OFFERS ANY HELP!!!

THIS IS NOT PMS SPEAKING K....IT'S STILL EARLY IN THE MONTH!!!!

MUM, I NEED MY CAR HERE!!!!!

=(

Num 55

WTF!!!! FML!!!! WTH!!!

PPL ALWAYS TAKE ME FOR GRANTED...PASS ME EVERYTHING TO EDIT, I'M FINE WITH IT......BUT TO PASS UNCOMPLETE WORK FOR ME IS LIKE TELLING ME TO DO ALL........SO

I MIGHT AS WELL BE DOING THE WHOLE THING BY MYSELF...N PUT MY NAME ON IT!!!!


ps: this is temporary madness only...i'll be OK after this........SORRY!

Num 53

believe it or not....i just did what i deemed to be the most ''stupidest' thing i've done so far.....

I CALLED A TUTOR 'STUPID' IN FRONT OF HIS FACE!!!!!

BUT then again, i did not regret it at all.....he was really stupid...n really annoying. that guy is like the rudest tutor i've met in my whole entire existence!!!!!!!!! so he deserved it.....

but i've gotta admit, i was scared as hell when that word slipped out of my mouth.....

what happened was something like this :

- he came late to class.....
- 2 groups were presenting their tutorial homework in class as usual...n he was busy texting behind.........STUPIAK!!
- after abt 15 mins, he locked the door.....who the hell does that? STUPIAK!!!!
- after presentation, he kinda commented on the fact that the presentors weren't wearing any formal attire....hello???????? u didn't mention anything abt that coz this was after all just a normal presentation on our homework...not an assignment presentation....STUPIAK!!!!
- then he commented that after 15 mins of class, he's gonna close the door....coz he won't allow the late students to come in........DOUBLE STANDARD GUY!!!!! STUPIAK STUPIAK STUPIAK!!!! he himself was late ok....

so, my anger was like building up since the beginning of class...n upon hearing that i pun mumbled the word 'stupid'.........or at least i thought i mumbled it, coz the word came out from my mouth loud n clear......the class was quiet, so everyone obviously heard it =_=" hehe.......n he said

" WHO SAY STUPID? "

as nervous as i was, i suprisingly managed to reply him coolly n casually...........

" Oh.....i dropped my eraser on the floor."

hahahahaaaaaaaaaahahahaaa........he didn't reply anything after that.....maybe he believed me, or maybe he knew i was referring to him n he didn't dare to go AGAINST me....muahahahahaha...

or maybe deep down inside, he's gonna target me for the rest of the semester....die la if like that....

after class, my classmates began asking me abt my sudden outburst.....some really believed it was abt my eraser but others knew that i was 'stupiaking' that stupid guy coz they saw my eraser.... hahahaha....

well, at least i got lots of compliments from my actions.....my classmates were glad someone dared to do speak up to that guy....i did wat everyone else wanted to do, but did not dare to do it.....the whole situation was kinda........LIBERATING!!!!!!

n for once i did something really wrong without feeling guilty abt it......ohhhhhhh, how i've changed...i'm becoming more erm.....honest????

hahahaha......well, i guess i'll have to find out soon if he holds a grudge against me....

Num 51

if only i could wipe off the smug on that guy's face...........urghhhhhhh.....f**king annoying...he probably thinks that he's the king of the world...since no one else can possibly beat him....

but then again, he deserves to have that huge smug on his face....coz he is the best n he deserves it...