Num 110

i dunno what to do right now!

so dissapointed of myself. the more expectations i put on myself the worst i become. this is probably the worst ever. infact, it can't get any worst than this. yes, i'm so ashamed of myself i'm afraid to even write abt this 'thing' on my blog.

i dunno what to do at all!

when everyone else are getting better, i'm getting from bad to worst. i thought i was good at what i was doing or at least an above average person. well, it turns out that i'm not. i'm way way below average. i worked so hard and nothing seems to ever pay off for me.

mum, dad i'm so sorry!!!! if only u guys knew!

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it's f-ing painful to come back here (kampar) today with a dissapointed heart and low morale to start off my final sem. i didn't manage to see him yesterday due to a stupid heavy rain at balik pulau. no comforting hugs from him. no 'it's gonna be ok. everything will turn out fine dear' pep-talk from him. so yea, here i am abt to explode anytime, wishing i have someone i love next to me to comfort me when i'm down.

=(

i'll have to face the harsh reality tomorrow!
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Num 109

i'm having my last paper tomorrow and i'm not in the mood to study anymore =="

reason?

scroll down to the bottom of my blog n u'll know!

it's our 3rd ANNIVERSARY!!! =)

time really flies, and it has already been 3 years......doesn't feel like 3 years though. i remembered when i entered into UTAR, we had only begun to 'date officially' for about 7 months..and as a new couple in the early stage, u know la....all lovey-dovey and the i'm-gonna-miss u-dun-wanna-leave-u thing.....

3 years later, it's still the same thing...and i'm about to graduate in abt 4 months....hahahaha ==" but we've adapted so well to the LDR. we c each other once every 3 weeks and if it's longer than that, he'll make an effort to come down to kampar.....delivering McD of course =P

i can foresee that final (next) sem is gonna be hard for us, with me doing fyp thesis....but it helps since he now owns a laptop and we get to virtually see each other every night. whatever la, we can make it through.....=)

if i go on writing abt how awesome he is, this post is never gonna end and i need to study NOW!! so yeah, he's 'almost' perfect with a few flaws....who doesn't right?

yea, silly picture....u could almost c my tonsils....but i love it coz that's how we act most of the time...=)

p.s: good luck to the Malaysian team....against Denmark wor later =="

Num 108

PLEASE DON' T READ!!!!! it's just a post on me complaining.........
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it's a norm that i ramble and complain excessively during the exam seasons =.="

but seriously, i should kill myself here and now....

it wasn't the most difficult paper....it was actually quite okay with the exceptions of a few difficult questions here and there.....

argghhhhhhhhhhhhhh......but i wasted some stupid marks away....

A = Q4 was easy!!! but i couldn't manage to finish the last part T.T so there goes my 4 marks

B = my incomplete/imperfect answers for other Q4 parts (due to me rushing like hell during the last 5 minutes)

C = questions i dunno how to answer at all

A+B+C = not good!!!!!!!

how am i suppose to pull my cgpa up leh???

if the paper was difficult, i wouldn't be so hard on myself.....but it was actually a do-able paper so go die la angie ng!!!

5 more minutes....an additional 5 more minutes would make me a happier girl right now T.T

y is it that science papers only have an allocation of 2 hours while the other business/ elective papers are 2 1/2 hours?? so unfair T.T