angie rambles

HARLO 2012

2012-01-01T12:16:00.011+08:00

Bye 2011, Hi 2012!!!

2011 has been a fruitful year for me....i've learnt so much through 1 year of working...things i couldn't have learn in 16 years of studies.

i did not really have a new year resolution for 2011...all because i was an unfocused, undetermined new graduate at the end of 2010. But by the end of 2011, i knew what i wanted in my personal life, career and future. so here goes...

1. To have more FOCUS in work. Although my work is kinda flexible in the sense that u can do whatever u like as long as u complete all your work and hit your KPIs, it definitely requires lots and lots of discipline. Something that i think i lack of in 2011. Sure, I was able to do well in work and in that process earn quite well =P....but still, i know that i did not put my 100% in it. SO FOR 2012, I WOULD GIVE 120% IN MY CAREER!!!

2. Strive for career advancement. i got the recognition i deserve when GM followed me out for fieldwork (definitely the scariest moment of my life....although he intimidates the hell out of me, a hands on GM is somewhat better than other GMs who sits in the office all day long). Identifying me as someone to look out for to my ABM & NSM is 1 step closer to my long term career plans. NOW IT'S TIME TO MOVE ANOTHER STEP CLOSER...

3. Financial planning. With a large chunk of monthly salary going off to parents, insurance, car loan, house loan and credit cards payment, i would have to be more prudent in my savings. Happy to say i've done quite well in 2011. MUST CONTINUE TO SAVE MORE IN 2012!!!

4. Start paying my student loan. I'm so embarassed to admit that i have not been paying my RM40k debt in 2011. MUST START PAYING at least RM12k/year and settle off student loan by 2015 or I'll be in debt till im old!!!

5. FURTHER STUDIES = MBA by end of 2012!!!

6. EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE!!!! need i say more?....MUST DRAG SHENG ALONG COZ HE'S GETTING FATTER AS WELL!!!

7. Wow, Sheng and I are going into our 5th year now...time really does fly. =) and every single moment in the last 5 years was amazing...to others, when u r already in a 5-year relationship, u would hv probably met with the parents, grandparents, extended families etc. But not in our case...yes, we've met each others' parents...but just short meetings n never for dinner or anything significant. Same goes to extended families, some knew that we are in a relationship, some do not hv a clue at all. Mostly because we prefer living in our own world and never like people asking us too many questions (think of ur own personal situation in family gatherings, weddings, CNY, and times that by 100x o.O). So, for 2012, should we make an effort to branch out and explore the possibilities of meeting the families??? ....we'll see how it goes. CNY is less than a month away...

8. MORE HOLIDAYS!!!! ya, a lil' against resolution #3 (where i'm supposed to save more $$$). But i believe all work n no play...will not make me a dull person, it'll only make me CRAAZEEEE!!! Sheng and I started off the holiday thing quite successfully in 2011, where we paid our own way to HONG KONG!!! before that, it was either KL or Genting (meh!)...

@ Victoria Peak

@ Jumbo Floating Restaurant

and to start off my holiyear 2012..I'm going to JAPAN!!! with my colleagues in 6 days time!!! i LOVE u Uncle Pfizer!!!

(Hi Mt Fuji! see you in one week!!!) YAY!!!!

*abrupt ending to post*

SO HERE'S TO TURNING QUARTER OF A CENTURY!!!! *oh no, 25!!!* HAVE A GREAT 2012!!!

10 months later...

2011-09-17T16:56:00.001+08:00

It has been 10 months since i've last updated my blog. Main reason: i've been working since Dec 2010 (the same time i stopped blogging) and couldn't be bothered to do anything else after a hard day's work.

Ok...and so i've stumbled across the new Blogger apps on iOS and decided to install it. Who knows i might start rambling actively once again....So yeah, i'm blogging through iphone now, alone at hm dog-sitting Chloe, Kimi, Suki while my parents n sis are all at Koh Lipe enjoying the sand, sun and sea...

Working life's fine...a lil' hectic with travelling and i don't really hv time to do anything else. I guess that's normal being a medical rep....i'm earning quite well for an entry level position and saving quite a lot since i'm stingy like Scrooge. I rarely buy new clothes, and even if i do, it'll be working clothes and shoes (FYI, i destroy an average of 1 pair of shoe every 3 months due to lotsa walking).

At 24, i have tons of commitments!!! =( Car loan, insurance, house loan, study loan. It's a lot to handle but i'll survive! Plus, how many 24-yr-olds out there can claim that they hv a hse of their own, right? So i guess i'm doing ok, although i will hv to slave away for the next 25yrs. My next few aims would be to pay off my student loan within 2.5 yrs (RM40k wtf!!!) and to then pursue MBA! Sounds like i'm having my plate full here...

Family's doing fine, dad's retiring end of Nov, sis's having her internship, bf sweet as ever, Chloe couldn't be any more cuter, Kimi n Suki has destroyed our garden by constant digging and... that's it for now. Oh ya, i'm darker n fatter!!! Two words a girl dread! =(

Pics below: Chloe; and our destroyed garden filled with booby traps to prevent more digging.

Num ???? err i lost count...

2010-11-28T23:26:00.004+08:00

boo hoo hoo.....here i am... exactly 2 months 3 days later, i finally updated my blog. mainly because i have nothing to update about.

my life so far has been boring. in a few sentences, i'm going to elaborate.

i sleep late, wake up late. feed chloe and my 2 new puppies, kimi and suki. occasionally i'd drive to Queensbay Mall to have lunch with my bf and shop around (window shopping though coz i have no source of income as for now). once in a while, i'll go for interviews. got a few jobs offered to me but since i'm picky, i chose to decline them ==" finally accepted one and will start working on dec.

there u go...my life for the past 2 months in less than 80 words.

oh...and at night, i'll either have dinner with my parents or go out for supper with bf, watch tv and call it a night.

ok, that makes it 102 words....

who knows once i start working, i might have things to complain about and 'Angie Rambles' might be an active blog again. =="

till then, may u have a wonderful day!!! =)

Num 123

2010-09-25T20:55:00.004+08:00

my blog is in a coma thank u very much....

and after next week i think it'll officially be dead...

coz i'm having my last paper of my final sem on monday, do the necessary corrections on my thesis so that my supervisor can approve it and then i'm done with my degree....

hopefully...cross my fingers i dun fail the worst paper i've done in my whole entire life...otherwise i might have to repeat. yes, i'm not a bright student.....T.T

so unless i'm frustrated or have something to rant and ramble about, don't count on me to update this blog of mine. blogging is not really a passion of mine. it's more of an outlet for me to just pour all my feelings out...

so that's all for now i guess.....will be back soon...hopefully =)

Num 122

2010-08-05T14:04:00.003+08:00

when will this thing called 'cancer' stop interfering with my life...

no, i don't have cancer.

but i just found out a few days ago that another person that i truly love has cancer...

=(

again!!!

throughtout my 23 years of existence, i've received this news 3 times!!!

my mum survived cancer =) coz she's young and strong....but my aunty (babysitter/god-mum) did not =(

and now it's her turn....judging from her age, i really dunno if she would survive it =(
i'd always thought that she would live to a ripe age of 99 and die of natural causes.
and i can't bare to go home to visit her coz it would kill me so much i might break down there and then....but not visiting her would make me an unfaithful/ungrateful/mean person...

from what i wrote, some u might guess how this person is related to me..

i have so much in my head, i woke up today with the worst headache ever!

there's nothing i can do but to keep myself occupied right now...

Num 121

2010-08-04T14:45:00.003+08:00

first of all i would to apologise in advance because what u r about to read is again another post of me getting frustrated and angry over a group assignment....

so, i've spent my whole day editing my group's assignment yesterday. going through shitty grammar and lousy sentences. i don't mind doing this part, coz that's what editing is about right???

but then, wat i got from them...total nonsense.

1. uncomplete work...so instead of editing, i ended up doing their part...how should i put this?? er....'got head, no tail'....so i ended up writing the 'tail' part...=="

2. capital letters and full stops!!!!! capital letters and full stops!!!!!! CAPITAL LETTERS AND FULL STOPS!!!! these are simple common things....and some couldn't even be bothered to put in a capital letter and a full stop....==" hello, all u have to do is press a key or two on the keyboard. i don't need unnecessary work like adding in capital letters and full stops just because they are lazy to press 'caps lock'.

3. i did as much as i could. using my effort and precious time to edit, writing extra, putting all the pieces together....and what i requested was for them to help me do the cover page and help in printing out the assignment. that's all right??? simple and easy....guess what???
mistakes on the cover page =="'

haiz...i was speechless and at that point, i was totally dissapointed. i spent my whole night trying to make the assignment better, when i could've done my own thesis instead. i corrected mistakes and grammar errors, and hell...even added capital letters and full stops!!!

so i thought, simple cover page nia ma......no way they can do mistake on that ma.....i was wrong apparently... coz some ppl couldn't be bothered to double check before printing....it only takes a few seconds of ur life to scan through the cover page, spot the mistake, and correct it. the least u can do compared to the amount of work i did!!!!

some might say....haiya, nvm la....a bit nia ma........that's not the point!!! the point is they rely too much on others and do not show any effort at all....they knew i would pick up their shit and clean it....and so, they shitted everywhere so that i can continue cleaning up the shit....i can't take it when ppl take me for granted.

we passed up the assignment earlier today. i didn't want to look at the final printed copy at all!!!
thank god it's the final group assignment i'll ever do in my uni life.... after today, the only shit i have to clean up is my own and chloe's!!!!

to coursemates of mine who are reading this....i'm sorry for being such a bitch for the last 3 years! i can't help it but to be like this.....i was born with this obssesive-compulsive thing when it comes to doing my work. don't believe me...ask my secondary schoolmates....i used to cut small pieces of white papers and stick them on whatever mistakes i had instead of using liquid papers =="

Num 120

2010-08-02T11:49:00.004+08:00

this is really fu*ked up la...........

i have no time for my thesis and yet i have to edit the group assignment....

i don't mind actually to edit........

but when i c the work they did, i get so frustrated!!!!!

i'm abt to cry now!!!!

seriously???? is that all???

i know the assignment is only 8 pages maximum, but it doesn't give us the right to slack off........

please la........it's 40% of my final grades for that subject k...

u guys may be smart but i rely on my asisgnments to score in the subject....

and thanks to u guys, i don't think i can do well in this fu*king assignment anymore....

some of u may read this, but then again i don't care.

u guys cost me my 40%!!!!!

T.T

stress is really getting on me.......

ps: dude, copy and paste is not even an option la....it's so obvious that u copied and paste....i kept my mouth shut because this is the last group assignment. thank god it's the last sem...

Num 119

2010-07-31T21:38:00.003+08:00

i have tons of things to do and yet when i c this shitty work, i become so effing pissed off!!!!!

thank god it's the last sem.....

grrrrrrrrrrrr............

Num 118

2010-07-16T20:50:00.003+08:00

once again, the feeling of being such a failure arises again tonight.

another good friend of mine is on to something great soon.

y am i so incompetent??

*sigh*

being in a typical chinese family, my mum would definitely compare me to these ppl if she knew.
and being me, i would be so dissapointed in myself for not making my parents proud.
it's hard to live up to their expectations. and my own expectations as well.

=(

Num 117

2010-07-14T23:38:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling inferior and at a very low point of my life right now...=(

former schoolmates of mine who had 90% graduated are all going places. as in they are getting their dream jobs, working outstations, interning outstations, first class degrees from international universities, going to graduate school etc. i'm really happy for them =) and it shows that SGGS produces good quality students that will go on in life to become successful ppl.

but somehow i'm stuck here. unsure of what lies ahead of me. not motivated, and very sure that i won't be getting these chances like them.

Num 116

2010-07-06T03:17:00.002+08:00

now this is really weird........

i was abt to go to sleep, said good nite to sheng and closed my eyes.....

till the image of my aunty and ke-pa pop into my head out of a sudden....i have no idea y but i started missing them so much i cried so much i never cried like this since the day she died.

aunty and ke-pa were like my parents. they were my babysitters who took care of me till i was 9. i was so attached to them when i was younger i wasn't even close to my own parents. by as i grew up and moved back into my parent's hse, i started to grew apart from them. n when they moved to kl to live with their working daughter, we didn't seem to keep in contact much anymore. i remembered promising myself that i would give them some monthly allowance one day when i start working.....bad news came and aunty was diagnosed with colon cancer. she eventually passed away. i can still remember seeing her thin fragile body when we visited her in kl abt a few months before she died. 4 months after she passed on, ke-pa passed away as well....

i was crying so badly just now i couldn't stand it but to get out of bed wanting to blog abt my sudden emo-ness.....i checked back my previous blog under friendster to read abt the post i wrote on the day i received the news. and was shocked....aunty died on the 6th of July 2006... today is 6th of July 2010. exactly 4 years later....i can't believe the coincidence here....was it pure coincidence? or did some bizarre and weird force of nature happened here??

really, i am not creating any story or anything....it really happened right before i went to sleep. all of sudden the thought of them came out and i started missing them so much.....i cried buckets of tears..am still crying now =(

4 years is a long time, and lots had happened. i'm abt to graduate in abt 3 months....i thought it was stress causing all my sudden outburst just now...but apparently not. i know both of them are in a happy place....i just wished i had the chance to repay them and take care of them. although they are not related by blood to me and my sis, we owe them tons for loving us like their own daughters.

this post is for my aunty's 4th year death anniversary. will always love and remember both u and ke-pa forever.

Num 115

2010-07-02T21:17:00.002+08:00

as usual when i'm in an irritated mood, i'll blog..............

the one and only way to vent out....go elsewhere if u don't wanna read this...

i mean who needs a laptop and a netbook at the same time???

apparently his dad bought him a netbook, 2 months after his dad bought him a laptop...which he is slowly paying back every month........i think it's so not necessary and a waste of money....

it's their lives, not mine...what can i do??? i say what i have to say already, and he didn't even try to stop the dad from buying it....

daddy's boy is truly blessed...and spoilt to the max!!!

at this age, he should be buying the dad something and not the other way around...

-fin-

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2010-07-01T21:04:00.006+08:00

i hate blogging except when i feel like expressing something without anyone really understanding what i'm actually talking about....it's a crazy habit of mine coz i really want to keep my thoughts private but can't help but to write it out....

so.................

RANDOM POST ALERT!!!!
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it's weird....but i can't help but to feel flattered by it....

it happened last year, and it happened this year....

or maybe i'm just too perasan of myself....

=="

on another note, i saw a rainbow today after an exhausting 7-hour lab session.....made me smile... rainbows have a weird effect on me =)

Number 113

2010-07-01T00:03:00.003+08:00

just for laughs...i find this hilarious =D

u have edward there all of a sudden ^^" and i just love the fact that voldemort and snape hv Fb accounts as well....lolz..

harry potter and twilight are the two most anticipated movies this year...so yea....

Num 112

2010-06-22T17:51:00.002+08:00

i'm too bz to blog these days..and not to mention...lazy

arghhhhhhhhhhhh......
WTH....my graduation present/november HK holidays has been downgraded to Sg T.T

i feel like kicking somebody in the arse......any takers??

my HK trip ah T.T..............T.T we were about to book the flight tickets in a matter of days and sheng had already made his passport..........and then we got the 'news'...jeng jeng jeng...

all because of sheng's friend whose wife suddenly decided to waste RM8000++ on a stupid slimming programme....and now they r on a tight budget and couldn't afford to go to HK anymore....

stupid ppl....just because of ur fat wife, 5 other ppl had to cancel their plans.....

i know i know, some might ask y can't we just go along with the plan without the two of them....

well, they are a bunch of good friends so much so that if one decided not to go, the rest wouldn't go either....so, me, as a 'supporting actress', was dragged into the hole as well....T.T

FML la.....

Num 111

2010-06-05T20:50:00.004+08:00

to sum up my day.......UNPRODUCTIVE!!

i did nothing although i'm suppose to do my thesis....==" kill me plz

but hey, today's Agong's birthday. n he deserve some form of celebration from me =P

i was dissapointed in myself at first for not doing anything today except watching the latest episode of Glee and catching up on Ugly Betty. Yesterday i watch the 4 last episodes of Grey's Anatomy and cried like hell when Gary Clark went on a rampage and started killing the doctors... T.T i cried in front of the webcam in front of sheng. =="

n i was angry at myself earlier for doing nothing today till i saw the itineray posted up by sheng's friend on the HK visit this November. couldn't help smiling and wishing Nov would come soon... HK Disneyland!!! here i come!!!! =D

but before that, i need to straighten out my priorities and start to get real serious on my studies and FYP. 4 months is real short and time is running out!!!! i'm scared deep down inside. i'll just have to keep motivating myself.....and stop watching dramas for now...=="

AFTER TONIGHT, I, NG YUET HUI, SOLEMNLY SWEARS TO DO HER VERY VERY VERY VERY BEST IN HER FINAL SEM!!!!!

Num 110

2010-05-30T22:26:00.005+08:00

i dunno what to do right now!

so dissapointed of myself. the more expectations i put on myself the worst i become. this is probably the worst ever. infact, it can't get any worst than this. yes, i'm so ashamed of myself i'm afraid to even write abt this 'thing' on my blog.

i dunno what to do at all!

when everyone else are getting better, i'm getting from bad to worst. i thought i was good at what i was doing or at least an above average person. well, it turns out that i'm not. i'm way way below average. i worked so hard and nothing seems to ever pay off for me.

mum, dad i'm so sorry!!!! if only u guys knew!

=(

it's f-ing painful to come back here (kampar) today with a dissapointed heart and low morale to start off my final sem. i didn't manage to see him yesterday due to a stupid heavy rain at balik pulau. no comforting hugs from him. no 'it's gonna be ok. everything will turn out fine dear' pep-talk from him. so yea, here i am abt to explode anytime, wishing i have someone i love next to me to comfort me when i'm down.

=(

i'll have to face the harsh reality tomorrow!
=(

Num 109

2010-05-12T11:59:00.004+08:00

i'm having my last paper tomorrow and i'm not in the mood to study anymore =="

reason?

scroll down to the bottom of my blog n u'll know!

it's our 3rd ANNIVERSARY!!! =)

time really flies, and it has already been 3 years......doesn't feel like 3 years though. i remembered when i entered into UTAR, we had only begun to 'date officially' for about 7 months..and as a new couple in the early stage, u know la....all lovey-dovey and the i'm-gonna-miss u-dun-wanna-leave-u thing.....

3 years later, it's still the same thing...and i'm about to graduate in abt 4 months....hahahaha ==" but we've adapted so well to the LDR. we c each other once every 3 weeks and if it's longer than that, he'll make an effort to come down to kampar.....delivering McD of course =P

i can foresee that final (next) sem is gonna be hard for us, with me doing fyp thesis....but it helps since he now owns a laptop and we get to virtually see each other every night. whatever la, we can make it through.....=)

if i go on writing abt how awesome he is, this post is never gonna end and i need to study NOW!! so yeah, he's 'almost' perfect with a few flaws....who doesn't right?

yea, silly picture....u could almost c my tonsils....but i love it coz that's how we act most of the time...=)

p.s: good luck to the Malaysian team....against Denmark wor later =="

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2010-05-03T17:01:00.002+08:00

PLEASE DON' T READ!!!!! it's just a post on me complaining.........
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it's a norm that i ramble and complain excessively during the exam seasons =.="

but seriously, i should kill myself here and now....

it wasn't the most difficult paper....it was actually quite okay with the exceptions of a few difficult questions here and there.....

argghhhhhhhhhhhhhh......but i wasted some stupid marks away....

A = Q4 was easy!!! but i couldn't manage to finish the last part T.T so there goes my 4 marks

B = my incomplete/imperfect answers for other Q4 parts (due to me rushing like hell during the last 5 minutes)

C = questions i dunno how to answer at all

A+B+C = not good!!!!!!!

how am i suppose to pull my cgpa up leh???

if the paper was difficult, i wouldn't be so hard on myself.....but it was actually a do-able paper so go die la angie ng!!!

5 more minutes....an additional 5 more minutes would make me a happier girl right now T.T

y is it that science papers only have an allocation of 2 hours while the other business/ elective papers are 2 1/2 hours?? so unfair T.T

Num 107

2010-04-30T16:00:00.006+08:00

my 23rd birthday fell on the study week....it was actually a blessing having my bday during the study week unlike the previous two years where i was having papers on the 29th....=)

sheng wanted to suprise me by coming down to kampar....but somehow i figured it out earlier and forced the secret out of him....lolz....he then complained that i'm so un-romantic...so true =P....i'm too clever to be fooled...or in other words, i'm no fun >.<

i don't actually like taking pictures...but it's my day so whatever la.....=.="

my pressie from him...such a waste of money but whatever la, it's nice ma hor?? =.=" he did gave me a children's t-shirt =.=" coz he said the design was nice...like wtf, the round-neck collar was so high i could barely breathe.....the last pic on the right is the reason y i don't like taking pictures....whatever la hor, it's a rare chance for u to admire my ugliness....and make u feel good abt urself =D

anyways...to UTAR students reading this, GOOD LUCK IN UR FINALS!!!!!

and to my other graduating friends (i.e. SGGS girls =D )....CONGRATS!!!!!! i have 5 more months to suffer before joining u guys...

Num 106

2010-04-16T13:29:00.002+08:00

it's confirmed.......i'm not meant to be in the science field =(

i know i complained tons of times before about this already, but the results i got today justified everything i felt previously =="

i'm always clueless about all the new researches in science...in fact, i have more knowledge and interests in non-science related fields i.e. arts, social science and business....and err.... entertainment =P

haiz...how leh...if there's not much passion how to do masters leh =="

get a bachelor of sciences in biotech then do MBA lolz....as if la i'm so capable *sigh*

Num 105

2010-04-15T14:08:00.003+08:00

at last, i finally have some time to breathe, read news, and blog...

i found this news a few minutes ago and seriously think that the guy that kena extorted is stupid...

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/4/15/nation/6056857&sec=nation

what grown man in his 30s doesn't even know how to masturbate??

so naive to believe meh??

=="

also..... read this

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/4/15/nation/6055104&sec=nation

of all possible locations, the porno film was shot at taman negara...

=="

Num 104

2010-03-30T22:10:00.011+08:00

i've been trying to read some journals and books for my FYP the whole night n my brain is totally fried...

i can't seem to process most of the sentences coz they're written in a way that goes on for miles and miles....
like this for instance.....

"A high proportion of the blunders in diagnosis of conservation problems within the declining-population paradigm can be traced directly to faulty scientific method: equating association and correlation with causality, failing to identify and cut through confounding of factors, failing to replicate, failing to balance, failing to control. Most of this springs from a creed that the rules of design, and the analyses appropriate to them, might have a place within the pages of a scientific journal, but can be dispensed with by practical people solving practical problems. A highly recommended antidote to that derangement is Underwood's (1990) paper on the logic of experiments in ecology and management. The squeamish will be relieved to hear that it contains no equations.”
G. Caughley (1994) J. An. Ecol.

can u enlighten me on the statement above?? lolz....'a highly recommended antidote to that derangement is...." hahahaha...y would he use words like this...for god's sake just say "a solution to this would be...." hahaha....also "the squemish will be relieved...." >.<" y la??? i bet the squemish will not be relieved after reading that... i started the night feeling optimistic and now i'm =.=" no longer in the mood to read....

anyways, to distract myself, i'm gonna put up a pic of an eye candy for u girls out there.....

yup, that's hottie kellan lutz aka emmett cullen with his dog, Kola....

yes, don't buy and please adopt instead.....

ppl these days prefer miniature toy dogs or pure breed dogs just coz they're 'cooler' and cuter. even me n my family are guilty for buying Chloe....but that was 4 years ago, we didn't know any better....

do u know how bad the conditions are at the puppy mills?? those idiotic dog breeders do not care abt the dogs' welfare and health....all they care abt is breeding them for money!!! also, if u or someone u know plans to breed their own dog and to sell off the puppies for some extra cash, then shame on u as well....

if u continue to buy dogs from petshops or from any of ur friends, please think twice....this is because there are tons of dogs out there at the streets or the pounds waiting for a home...most of these dogs are waiting to be euthanized or are slowly suffering to death at the city pound... SPCA and PETA are trying to make a difference...but their efforts are in vain as most ppl don't even bother about mongrel dogs....=( stupid human mentality....

like these mixed mongrels at the Klang Dog Pound...the ones in the first picture was killed on the 28/3 n the one below will be killed on 14/4....

if that doesn't pull ur heart strings, then u must be really cruel...T.T

go to http://www.petfinder.my/ and look at the left side bar....the ones above are just only a handful of the hundreds of dogs waiting to be killed at the dog pound....save them, save lives...=(

i know i know, who am i to tell u wat to buy or not buy right? after all, i myself was guilty of buying a toy dog 4 years ago....but me n my family, we're making a difference by spaying Chloe... we know that we won't succumb to the cruel act of breeding our chloe just to earn some money n so to avoid her from getting 'unwanted' pregnancies, we spayed her last week...we also pledge to adopt dogs in the future instead of buying....

more people should spay n neuter their cats and dogs especially if they r often let out to run around the neighbourhood...just by that, we help reduce the amount of street dogs and cats who will eventually be caught and killed.....=(

seriously, i may sound like a hypocrite right now and u might think that i'm just saying this so that i can make myself sound like i'm very generous and all that...but i'm just speaking from the bottom of my heart....u can judge me but not those innocent dogs...=(

Num 103

2010-03-28T15:35:00.002+08:00

we're so different yet we're the same in so many ways =="

u make me laugh, u make cry....i can never stay mad at u for more than an hour....coz u'll always find a way to make me smile =)

it's amazing how we can just talk for more than 3 hours without realizing it....

that's y u r the best...the only person i can really be myself with...

c u soon =)

~ilyss~

Num 102

2010-03-26T13:58:00.004+08:00

i thought that this is gonna be a long long post...

with lots n lots of ramblings and cursings....but it turns out that i was stupid =="

but u've got to read this...

http://nose4news.wordpress.com/2010/03/25/tnb-to-sue-wwf-over-earth-hour/

i spent abt 1 hour writing a post regarding the news article above...i commented on every single statement of his....i was pissed off!!!! totally going ballistic...

till i realized that i'm actually very stupid and naive....the news is not credible at all....lolz..

wasted my whole hour writing abt something that is all made up....boo hoo to that website for making me all revved up and crazy...

i should've known that such a large conglomerate like TNB would not give statements like this, apatah lagi a CEO =.="

if this news is fake then i feel so sorry for the blogger coz he has nothing better to do but to create lies to entertain us =).....however, if this news is real, then TNB should go DIE la....

arrghhhhhhhhh...my 1 hr went poof *dissapears into thin air*.....

i gotta go clean my floor....my guest is coming in abt an hour or so =D

Num 101

2010-03-26T00:11:00.003+08:00

a friend of mine just posted something on Fb saying that he get to see his gf 'only' 10 hours per day...n he's worried that their bond will become 'looser'

n i was like =.="

10 hours is hell lot of time to spend with ur significant other...if 10 hours is still not enough to become closer to ur bf/gf, then i dunno what else could be done.. =.="

i 'only' get to see my bf twice per month....each occasion abt 3 hours only...which makes it abt 6 hours per month....=.=" compared it to 10 hours per day, 300 hours per month...hahaha!!! =D hilarious right??

i'm not complaining...i'm satisfied =D 6 hours of pure bliss and happiness is enough for me...=D

he's coming tomorrow!!!! =D i love it when he comes over...movie night!!!

FINISH!!!!!

nowadays, i can't seem to write complete and full sentences...FAIL!!!!

NUM 100!!!!!

2010-03-24T11:40:00.002+08:00

it's the 100th post!!!!! initially, i wanted to write something fun as my 100th post...but right now, i'm so frustrated i just wanna vent out........

freaking next door renovation is killing me.........all the drilling since 9.30 has made me gone @#!$$%^(^&%@#@$%$!!!! such a coincidence that they decide to drill today when i'm not having classes....=(

another thing that has made me gone cuckoo....i'm gonna write this in terms that ppl can't understand now...

i want it but i can't have it.... actually i could've have it but my pride and ego has made me lost it...no one else deserves it more than me n my dad...i'm not going to do it with other ppl who is not even crazy over it.... i'm a true _ _ _ and i need someone who is also the same....i can't stand ppl who just do it coz they have too much money...and have no idea of the industry at all....=.="

it's hard to write like this....wtf =.=" but i must not be obvious coz i really dun want hurt anyone's feelings.....

yes, i'm jealous....plz dad, i really really want it....

haiz, what a way to start my day.....

Num 99

2010-03-19T13:34:00.003+08:00

i actually wrote a num 99 a few hrs ago....but i chose not to publish it yet as i was waiting for a sign from god...

i did get a sign from Him, but a different one from what i expected...

it's amazing how 60 minutes can do to a person...once i calmed down n started thinking rationally, i realized that i'm actually a very impatient person...

thank god i didn't publish the post as it would've make things worst...

well it's gonna be a long n quiet lab session later...

i look forward to the weekends...to be with my loved ones again =)

Num 98

2010-03-15T21:28:00.004+08:00

there are days where i feel like i'm such a failure...today is one of those days T.T

nothing i do seems to be going well these days...as hard as i try, i still end up failing miserably...i dunno...

i should try harder i guess...after all i'm not a genius...i'm not as good in multi-tasking as i used to...old age is catching up on me =="

thank god i'm not having classes on tues n wed....i can't bear going to class n putting on a fake smile when all i wanna do is to be alone...i think everyone sees me as a happy-go-lucky girl...one who is never gloomy or sad...bleh!! i wish...

i so so want to make 'them' proud! so please..........

Num 97

2010-03-15T01:07:00.006+08:00

i'm so happy right nowWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lalalalalala.....i'm gonna write in caps lock......

FERRARI WON ONE-TWO AT THE BAHRAIN GRAND PRIX!!!!!!!!!!! =D
though schumi only ended up in 6th place =(
BOTH LOTUS CARS MANAGED TO FINISHED THE RACE.......quite an achievement since this is their first race ever...=D not bad at all....

on another note,

LEE CHONG WEI WON THE ALL-ENGLAND TITLE!!!!!!! =D
AHAHAHAHAHA.....

SUCH A GOOD DAY FOR SPORTS TODAY!!!! all my favourite people won....=D

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y am i so happy when i did nothing productive at all this weekend??? =( i'm so dissapointed in myself right now......

i practically used the whole weekend proof-reading my group's assignment when i'm supposed to be doing my lab report and studying for my test T.T

i'm not blaming anyone but myself......=(
wtf, y am i so generous??? T.T

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it's 1.40 am already.....while writing this, i'm talking to mr.goh on the phone.....=) so efficient right?? if only i can multi-task like this in my daily life....*sigh*

Num 96

2010-03-09T18:02:00.002+08:00

u know u're having PMS when u start to get annoyed at simple things in life =="

i might offend some ppl in this post, but wth this is my blog after all.....

this post may not apply to everyone...so if u 'terasa' means u are one of those people who are guilty of pulling my last nerve....

VENUE : entrepreneurship class

VICTIMS : me, n maybe some other biotech students.....but then again, maybe i'm the only one feeling annoyed...

CULPRITS : business students...i.e: students pursuing business admin, entrepreneurship, accounting, marketing....those in the same entre class with me this sem...

SITUATION 1: they talk crap all the time....talk crap to the lecturer, ask crap questions, tell crap jokes (which aren't funny at all)...thank god the lecturer can stand them....or maybe not.... coz he's resigning n this will be the last week for him..maybe he's resigning coz he can't stand those students anymore.....

SITUATION 2: they cheat in their mid-term, right in front of my own eyes n the lecturer's...... at the beginning of the test, while we science students were cracking our heads trying to do a last-minute read-through, they (the business students) were laughing and talking loudly behind.... yala, maybe entre very easy for u guys since ya'll are business students ma....but us science students aren't pro okay....so plz be more considerate for god's sake......anyway, we did our mid-term n when time's up, we (BT students) passed up our papers obediently n quietly like we always do in every other quiz/test/exam, and walked out of the exam hall.....

as for them??? some of them did passed up their papers, while others started talking n discussing at the back with their papers and pens still in their hand o.O wtf right? some even walked to the front table where the lecturer was standing n changed his/her answers on the spot......WTF RIGHT????

the lecturer knew, and he couldn't be bothered with them....what does that tell u??? duh, obviously he's probably used to this kinda situation n sudah tak larat to do anything anymore....

what can we do but to secretly curse them in our hearts for this unfairness.....

y must we take arts and business subjects as our main papers apart from our usual science subjects??? y do we have to come out with a business plan for our assignment when we are actually specializing in tissue culturing and molecular work??? if that's the case, then y can't they have lab experiments as well?? so to be fair lah...........

oh i know, coz we science students are AWESOME!!!! =D we're good at multi-tasking and we're good at everything we do!!!!! ask the arts/business students to do a business plan, lab reports, prepare for tests every week, spend hours in the lab doing FYP etc, and i dun think they can juggle as well as the science students do.....AND to top that, we have to pay more for our fees as well.....where's the equality in that??? hmpppppph........

okay, this may not apply to everyone.....some arts/business students are very very very good in what they do....they have assignments almost every week and are doing their best....i admire that =D

no offense k everyone =) i'm just super-pissed off at those talk-crap-cheating students in my entrepreneurship class.....

sorry for my lousy english =(......if dr.han were to read this, he'll probably change his mind abt my english proficiency T.T

Number 95

2010-03-02T03:24:00.004+08:00

i did it just for u...but since my effort is not appreciated then fine!!!!

i'll go to that concert myself with another friend of mine......

i've made up my mind not to come back this weekend n it's all ur fault...

dun say u miss me while i'm at kl......

i couldn't be bothered anymore!!

Number 94

2010-02-11T18:54:00.003+08:00

since i have so much time right now n while i'm waiting for my 2.45pm bus tmr to penang... i'm gonna posts up something i just found online

I WANT THIS IS MY ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =="

i wanna sleep on that huge bed while edward's looking out for me....just in case some crazy deranged tracker vampire decides to make me his meal.....=D

at the same time, i have my edward keeping me company always n reminding me to 'be safe'...hahahah............i want that wallpaper la............=)

okok...i admit...i might be turning 23 this year, but i still have the thinking of a pre-teen girl..... going all gaga over a fictional vampire....but he's drop-dead gorgeous leh...haha pun not intended =P

alrighty then...i won't be updating till after CNY d........so everyone, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!! GONG XI FA CAI!!!!!

ps: i wish the time would pass faster....i can't wait to go back

NUM 93

2010-02-05T18:57:00.010+08:00

Disclaimer: The following is a post abt something that i love dearly but have been ignoring for the past 6 months or so.

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wanna know what it is???
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FORMULA 1!!!!!!! n SCHUMACHER!!!!!!!!

let's make the story short shall we???

this is MICHAEL SCHUMACHER!!!!!! for those of u who don't know who he is....u should go n bang ur head against the door la......

schumi used to drive for this team~~~~~ the SCUDERIA FERRARI aka the prancing stallion aka the name of my blog ==" !!!!!! he won 7 freakin' world championships ok.....n 5 of it was with ferrari.....O.o

schumi with the 'mastermind' Ross Brawn....brawn the 'mastermind' is the guy that made schumi the legend he is today. he worked with schumacher throughout his whole driving career till the day schumi decided to retire in 2006. schumi retired, he followed along also la.......

schumi then worked as an advisor/consultant to ferrari for 3 years......

n then brawn the 'mastermind' came back in 2009, saving the HONDA team n took over the management as the team principal of Brawn GP.....he changed the name of the team after himself leh.....super filthy rich to be able to buy a whole F1 team =="..........anyway, brawn the 'mastermind' managed to outdo himself and lead Jenson Button and the team to the Driver's Title n the Constructors' Championship.........n it was their debut season leh, how keng is that???

...after 3 years of hiatus, schumi CAME BACK!!!!!! i think he really cannot tahan n succumbed to the lure of F1 driving....all the adrenaline and excitement of driving an F1 car cannot be ignored. somehow i think schumi and brawn are inseparable....so he decided to join brawn the 'mastermind' at Mercedes GP for the 2010 season lo........

someone says 0000000000..............

the GOOD news is.........Schumacher's BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! miss u miss u miss u miss u!!!!!! =D

the BAD news is........he won't be wearing red leh...=( he's wearing white........such an unflattering colour for him. =( and a no.3 car for him this year.....

the problem now is...........i'm a Ferrari supporter n Schumi fan at the same time leh........how to split myself into two??? what happens when schumi is racing against massa???

anyhoooooo..........

here's massa with the new F10.....=) he's back after that horrible horrible accident at Hungary.

and WELCOME FERNANDO!!!!!! though i don't fancy u that much when u were driving for renault, i welcome u with an open mind and an open heart =="....make sure u drive properly ya...

It's now up to tactics and race strategies this season. no refuelling during race is difficult.....i bet there'll be cars running out of fuel halfway on the track.....

Bahrain Grand Prix next month.....!!!!

Num 92

2010-01-28T18:36:00.001+08:00

how can i love n hate him at the same time???

Num 91

2010-01-26T21:13:00.004+08:00

these are a few of my thoughts and questions that has been bothering me since the beginning of 2010....

another year had passed n i have 10 months exactly to figure out what i want in my life b4 the end of my third year....

What should i do after i am finished with my undergraduate studies??? be content with my humble degree cert...or proceed on to postgraduate studies??
at this point, i'm so tired of studying ==" n so tired of uni life....but by doing Masters i can actually secure a more stable and brighter future....

which leads to this question........
where should i do my postgraduate studies?? locally or outstation??
should i stay in msia after i'm finished with my Masters???

i know for a fact that with a degree cert from UTAR, there's no way that i'll get a job elsewhere other than in Msia. n i'm quite sure that even if i have a Masters from UTAR, i wont' be able to get a job in other countries...what to do?? UTAR so so nia ==".....not one of those top class private universities which offers twinning programmes and certs from other 'ang-moh' universities....so, unless i do my postgrad in canada or germany (which my mum wants me too, i dunno y =="), i'll be in msia for the rests of my life....but, i ain't got no $$$ to go so far leh....if i do, i wouldn't be studying here d la.....

mum always remind me of the fact that malaysian chinese will suffer tremendously in the future!!!! all the oppression and unequality will become worst in the future... better escape before it's too late she'll say............BUT hor, i love msia leh...penang in particular....how leh??? if only penang gets its own independence from msia and become an independent country by itself =D how wonderful is that???

and.....
is he the one???
we r like heaven n earth, totally opposites of one another and yet, we clicked with one another so well. it's amazing that i fell in love with him as when i was younger, i'd always imagine that my future bf/husband/soulmate would be a smart, intelligent, handsome, rich and so totally charming. he's different from what i imagined him to be...he's dorky n silly, really dumb n damn blur...well, at least he is charming in his own ways =.=".....we've been together for almost 3 years n i love every minute of it...somehow i think that if i follow my mum's advise n settle down elsewhere, he wouldn't follow me...he has his obligations to his parents as he's the only child....so if that's the case, should i be dragging this any further??? i wouldn't want to waste his time =( i know i'm selfish this way............

..............................................those r the long-term questions i need to figure out by november 2010....

as for my short-term question...........
SHOULD I GO BACK PENANG THIS WEEKEND?????
i want to...but i have stupid classes till 7pm on friday n the last bus is at 5pm.... also i'm having 2 lab reports to complete leh...FML la...

Num 90

2010-01-21T16:09:00.005+08:00

hey there....i know i've been MIA...sorry =(

i've been MIA during my 3-months of sem break...my penang friends kept asking me for a gathering n yet i did nothing....coz i basically was too tired to do anything after work each day =.="...bleh! lazy me!!

n i lost contact with all my coursemates coz i did not have any internet connections...i went back Pg n my parents had already cancelled the internet line as we were abt to move....n when we had already moved, the TMNet idiots took such a long time just to set up everything for us....btw, i moved to Balik Pulau =.="

so this is the 1st week of my final year...it's FYP year n that my dear, equals to DEATH!!!!! =.=' okla...i know some of u might be complaining...

'y u so lucky wan. u dun have to do ur FYP project all throughout this sem...ur FYP starts in May, which is during the sem break. n it only lasts for abt 1 week nia. nt fair la.....' hehhe...i admit. i might not have to slave myself in the lab during the whole sem...but this means that i have less time to do my thesis n project in the final sem...die lo that time =.='

it's not that i chose to do so...i picked a project which involves me going to the forests n so, it involves me being there for 7-9 continuos days. thus, i can only do that during the sem break in May =.="

Week 1 was tiring........not tired of the classes. more like being tired waiting for the classes to start.....the weather here is so hot.....i swear to God, standing under the sun for 2 minutes will give u a minor sunburn =.="

uni social life reminds me of high school....in fact it's worst than high school. i won't say much..but let's just put it this way.....cliques happen...

haiya....i dun have anything to blog about liao laaaa... nothing interesting going on in my life...n so nothing to talk or brag about....

TATAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!1

p.s: next door hse so noisy....y renovate now!!!!!!!! ppl need to study u know....hahaha. as if la =.="

Num 89

2010-01-12T23:34:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

sorry for the 3-month dissapearance....i know i haven't been updating as much as i should..i was enjoying my holidays..hehehe

anyways, i'm now living in balik pulau...which is this 'ulu' place at the 'forgotten' corner of penang island. *sigh*....such a boring n quite place, it almost remind me of kampar....no entertainment, no good food =(

3rd year of uni will start in 5 days...something that i'm not looking forward to at all...assignments, FYP, quizzes, stress and home-sickness....blehhhhhhh......

i've cut off 6 inches of my hair....n am looking more like a watermelon now...i've put on weight for the past 3 months...no regrets though =D

............ermm..........nothing else to write...

till then.....tata!!!

Num 88

2009-10-15T10:05:00.002+08:00

i'm sitting here in the room of Golden Sands Resort...damn fast internet connection la =D....my mum got complementary rooms...that's one of the perks having your parents working in the hotel industry =P

nothing much these days...just working and gaining weight ^^"

so i'm going for a swim in the pool now...and ignoring the fact that my exam results had already came out yesterday!!!!

i'm still in the holiday mood...n so, i haven't started doing any research for my FYP.....anyways, FYP officially starts next year. n i have the right to do my own things these three months....

i'm moving next month!!! balik pulau =( haiz.........

till then....tata...=)

Num 87

2009-09-28T00:22:00.002+08:00

holidays have started n i'm lazing around as usual....ahhhhhhh...life is great again!!!

=D so this means that i won't be updating as often as i should...

firstly, it's coz the line here sucks so much...i don't have the patience to wait for a full page to load...it takes at least 5 mins per page ok...so, no thank u, i rather sit in front of the TV n watch E!

secondly, i'll be working again....after i come back from thailand of course... since i've started studying, i've not been on a proper holiday....n i miss thailand so so much...when i was in secondary school, it'll always be 2 thailand trips per year...ahhhh, the islands there are heaven i tell u....cannot be compared to those in malaysia at all...the islands in malaysia are too commercialized...the thai islands are so secluded and peaceful with crystal clear water...a perfect getaway =)....just simple chalets and a small cafe which operates till 8pm....KOH LIPE HERE I COME!!!!!!

ahh i can't wait to work again...getting paid lotsa of $$$ and given free clothes by just standing there....=D

anyway, like i said, i won't be updating often!!!! so tata.....au revoir...c ya around!!!

Num 86

2009-09-23T13:24:00.003+08:00

finals is finished!!!!!!

i'm coming back to penang!!!!!

YEAH!!!!!!

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on another note:

how do u expect me to react to that???

this is so wrong in so many ways......

u r such an idiot....

i'll just close one eye n pretend nothing happened....

*sigh*

Num 85

2009-09-17T11:40:00.002+08:00

arghhhhhhhhhh...my head hurts like hell!!!!

n i think i've just flunked my 4 credit hrs paper.....i'm so disappointed in myself so much right now i just wanna choke someone to death...any takers??

1.5 hrs of sleep last nite and this is what i get???

i can only hope that a miracle can happen....

i really need to increase my cgpa back to the glory it once was...n that was in Year 1 =.="

damn u angie!!!! u need to focus harder!!!!

Num 84

2009-09-13T20:40:00.006+08:00

just a few quick updates and current thoughts......i'm having my finals right now...

1. damn!!! i'm so way behind for my tues molecular bio paper......die die liao la =.="...n yet i'm still so relaxed right now.....knowing myself, i'll definitely start panicking tmr.....oh no!!!! i've already started to feel panic in me while writing this......HELP!!!!!!!!

2. how many more to go????

Pendidikan moral 12/9
Molecular biology 15/9
Cell and Tissue Culture Techniques 17/9
Genetics 19/9
Culture and Communication 23/9

3. i so can't wait for the 3 months holiday to start......good food, good friends, shopping, sleeping, working and getting paid for the work.....ahhhh...life is wonderful again!!! persevere angie persevere!!!!!! 10 more days to go!!!!

4. wei...FYP confirmation coming out liao anot????? i've been waiting for so long for the confirmation...did i get it??? did i not get it??? if i do get my 1st choice, then there goes my holidays....if not then =(

5. i miss out on chloe's first swim today T.T .....my parents took her to mukah head and chloe had fun there.....i wondered how she would look like swimming in the sea....plus, mum told me that chloe kept on chasing and barking after those monkeys...how cute!!!! and she was so friendly to the ang mohs there.....yeah for chloe!!!! show those mat saleh some friendly malaysian hospitalities....=D

6. on another note.....i'm so pissed off with my next door neighbour u have no idea....plz la, show some civic responsibilities....clean the toilet after u use la......there's always this weird smell after u use the toilet =.=".....and also, do u need to take 6 times bath per day......ohhhh, i know!!!! ur bf baths there too rite....dude, electricity bill was already so high before ur bf decided to move in for free....i dun want to pay extra just because ur bf is sleeping in ur room.....ask him to go back n sleep at his own hse la....if not, pay monthly rent for his own room for wat???? also, do u have to be so lansi....smile a bit la....talk with other hsemates a bit la.....don't just play with ur bf in the room and shout like u own the whole house...i'm next door okay??? plus, ur bf is not really that handsome....show off sumore la i dun care....mine is way better looking!!!! ONE MORE THING.....STOP BANGING THE DOOR EVERYTIME U CLOSE IT!!!! FREAKING ANNOYING!!! no wonder ur roomate decided to move out at last.....i bet u're happy rite? coz now u get to invite ur bf n have sleepovers....

i'm so mean rite??? yea, i'm mean like that.....cross my boundaries and i won't hesitate to talk bad abt u here.....but then again she doesn't read this, so it doesn't matter la.....

7. i'm moving to the ulu balik pulau soon.........T.T mum i dun wanna move plz.........i rather stay in a small apartment then move into a bigger house far far away from civilization (aka queensbay)....dahlah i spent most of my time here at ulu Kampar, now i have to move to ulu Balik Pulau.....huhuhuhu T.T.......if i stay at balik pulau then it'll be so difficult to go out at night.....and i dun want him to fetch me back to a place so far away late at night.....ahhh.....i need my late nite supper and midnight movies at the cinema...

8. out of boredom and stress, i spent rm90 on online shopping yesterday....yea silly me spend money on clothes without trying it on.....let's c if i'll regret on my choices in another 3 days....=.="

okay that's it for now....gotta get back to MB.....i won't be updating often...bye

Num 83

2009-09-09T21:07:00.003+08:00

since kok quin's posting something just coz it's 09 09 of 09...i'm gonna post something up as well..... yea...i'm a copycat!!!! =.="

though i shouldn't coz i'm running out of time and haven't finish studying for my finals next week....=.="

n yet i'm feeling so relaxed these few days..taking my own sweet time...lalalalalala-ing the whole day.....n not to mention sleeping for abt 10 hours per day....i feel like i've take a whole bottle of sleeping pills which makes me drowsy the whole week......

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!! TOLONG AH!!!!! i need more time T.T huhuhuhu!!!!

anywayz....bf sms-ed me at 0909 in the morning today just before he went for his badminton...so sweet rite?? the timing exactly sumore.....=)

so everyone!!!!

HAPPY 090909!!!!!!

Num 82

2009-09-05T18:37:00.002+08:00

there's no goodbye

true indeed.............

counting the moments till i c u again =)

now, it's crunch time!!! STUDY!!! i hope.....

Num 81

2009-09-03T01:25:00.003+08:00

i spent the whole nite thinking of what could've been....

n i was actually halfway writing more hurtful things in a newer post...........till one of my groupmates sms-ed to apologise to me..........

then i deleted everything off.........=.=" coz i feel so bad..........

coming to think abt it, y should she apologise to me.........she hasn't done anything wrong...she wasn't the leader.......in fact, i think she did more than her own part....

i wanted so badly to help out but......*sigh*

what has been done has been done.........it's the past n there's no use getting angry abt it anymore........i hope i'll wake up tmr feeling much better...so much for wanting to concentrate on my studies tonight huh....

revision for tonight--FAILED!!!!

it's just that i feel as if i dun have control on my life anymore......coursework marks for almost every subject this sem sucks......i strive so hard but it's not paying off.....n when it's not paying off, i feel demotivated......n lazy!!!

God, plz bless me n hope i stay strong for the coming finals....

Num 80

2009-09-02T21:20:00.005+08:00

i'm gonna cry...i swear i'm gonna cry.....................

my group assignment marks for CC was so horrible i'm gonna cry......T.T....n to know that it could have been done better makes me wanna cry more.......if the assignment marks was better i could have gotten such a better coursework marks.......

55/100.........what the hell rite??? abt half??? while other groups gotten as high as 92.5/100!!!! i've always done well in assignments n to know that i have no control over this one kills me.....elective subjects are always easy to score, but i guess it's not happening in this case.....

that is why i HATE group assignments...no offense to my fellow coursemates reading this =.="..... but when it comes to group reports, ppl tend to put in less effort...i've seen it lots of times before.....they do their part n submit everything to the group leader....n when u have a not-so-responsible leader, u just know that the whole assignment is going to flop.......

i actually knew that the assignment wasn't gonna be the best when they submitted it.....i didn't have a chance to look at the final work n when i kept asking the leader to let me have a look at it and edit the grammar, sentences and etc, he failed to pass it to me....i waited many days....till late at night the day before submission btw.....but alas, i went to bed frustrated as i recieved NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was actually so frustrated at that time, i wanted to blog abt it.... but i didn't coz what has been done has been done..................BUT AT THIS SHITTY MOMENT, I'M SO PISSED OFF N FRUSTRATED U HAVE NO IDEA!!!!!!

i'm a control freak....n when there's something that i can't control, i'll be very frustrated n very annoyed coz i basically trust no one but myself.....n to know that i could have helped to make the assignment better but didn't have a chance to do so kills me so much i want to stab myself to death right now......it's one of those things where u know u can make it so much better but was not given an oppurtunity to do so!!!!! as a result i got this stupid shitty marks for my CC assignment while pulls down my whole coursework marks.............which means it's harder to get A for a usually-easy-to-score-elective subject..........

FML!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Num 79

2009-08-26T14:26:00.002+08:00

lab reports -------no more
quizzes, mid-terms-----------bye bye
assignments----- tata
finals---------HELLO!!!!!!!! =.="

i feel so free right now =) weeeeeeeee..........i'm going to have fun n eat lotz n lotz of yummy food this weekend...who cares abt growing fat.....=P

but at the same time, i'm totally worried abt my FYP...still no reply from Dr.Han....some of my coursemates have gotten their 1st choice tittles d....i'm so afraid that if i dun get my 1st choice, i'll end up getting the 5th or 6th one..n i wouldn't want that...=(

life is really unfair sometimes........i have a friend, Z, who works his/her ass off...Z is so damn hardworking, smart, etc n yet Z couldn't get the title Z really really wanted....plus Z's really independent.......n by independent i mean Z does his/her own work without depending on others....no copying, no relying on others ppl's work n stuff..........yet the lecturer ended up choosing someone else n Z is totally bummed out....i know i would also feel the same if i was in Z's shoes....

anyway, it's the lecturer's loss...coz she's abt to have a major headache next year.....

Num 78

2009-08-22T01:45:00.002+08:00

boring boring days....n nites =.="

y do u have to get urself sick??? n i don't mean me...i mean him...

i know laaaaaaaa...u want to accompany me so that we can both be sick at the same time =P

it kills me to know that u r sick n i can't do anything abt it =(

plz wake up n tell me that u r feeling better now....=(

i miss u so much n i'm so bored, i'm watching WWE....wtf right?

Num 77

2009-08-19T16:25:00.002+08:00

i'm back......a week without internet can be torturous......

pardon my extremely emo posts last week...i was really really dissapointed with myself at that moment....the good news is that i'm over it now =D..........

yea!!!!! NO MORE LAB REPORTS FOR THIS SEM!!!!!
BOOOOOOOOOO....FINALS COMING SOON......=(

on another note, do u think i'm having H1N1 if i'm having cough n sore throat???? i doubt that i'm having it....though i've been to many public places last weekend.....i've not visited the clinic so far...coz i'm not used to going to clinics as the last time i fell sick was when i was in F6....n even then, i did not go to the clinic...hahhaa...=.="

there u go...i've updated.....

Num 76

2009-08-11T01:14:00.004+08:00

i'm at the lowest point of my whole existence right now

feel like such a failure...total failure!!!

where r the fruits of my labour???

even with so much fertilizer, i can't bear any fruits

let's just hope tomorrow's a better day.........

coz i can't stand this feeling

the feeling of being such a loser

it's killing me slowly.....

good nite!!! =)

NUM 75

2009-08-10T17:40:00.008+08:00

FML TOTALLY FML TO THE MAX!!!!!! FML TILL KAO KAO!!!!

to those ppl that say good things come to those that work hard...........i say BULLSHIT la!!!!!!!!!

yea...good things do come to SOME ppl who work hard........

except for one particular person........who slave off her big-fat ass n study till late at nite n wake up early to continue....do tons n tons of practise questions.....n was so confident she could do it!!!!!! but alas, she ended up feeling like she just fell into a deep stinking monsoon drain.......

FML la...................how can a person be so sure she can do it n when she does it, it all comes falling down.......yup, that's me!!!!!! the big-fat ass girl...good for nothing n just wasting the Earth's oxygen....=.="

anyway...another shitty news comes on the same day...FYP titles coming out tmr.....n i dun even know what i'm gonna do......but even if i do know, i'll obviously be the last person on earth that the lecturers will choose..............

want know y???

COZ I'M BASICALLY INVISIBLE, THAT'S WHY!

THANKS TO MY LOUSY NAME....WHICH NO LECTURER CAN EVER REMEMBER!!! WHO THE HELL CAN REMEMBER SUCH A COMPLICATED NAME LIKE

NG YUET HUI!!!!!

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YEA....lecturers tend to forget my name often.........coz most ppl can't even pronounce it in a proper way...heck, even i have difficulties saying that name.........next time if i have a kid, i swear on my fat-ass that i'm gonna give him/her such a unique name that ppl will remember it..........names like Hercules, or Athena, or Doraemon!!! maybe Pikachu!!! WTF!!!!

ok la...normal christian names will do la.......just make sure the name is in the birth cert...

n u wanna know wat else?? i'm not the smartest or the prettiest or the most stand-out person in class....nor do i have tons of questions to ask the lecturers during class.....n i dunno how to talk n impress the lecturers coz my range of words are limited WTF!!! ...........i dun even know how to bodek....bodek skills very important k.......

so how the hell am i gonna get to do the FYP that i want????? everyone wants tissue culture, so do i....no one wants those molecular based FYP. hell, i dun want it either....i can't do molecular based subjects....i suck at it big time!!!!...everyone's gonna go after the same few lecturers... so, the lecturers will have the option to choose who they want.......n rest assure, i'll be the last person they would ever pick!!!

before u go ahead n think that i'm not appreciating my life n bla bla should be grateful n bla bla should work harder bla bla bla bla think positive............words are easier said than done....ur life may be perfect now....but mine isn't!!!!

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IT SUCKS!!!!!

even schumacher can't make me smile right now!!!!

Num 74

2009-08-09T12:58:00.004+08:00

just a few updates on my oh-so-boring-life..........

sleeping is addictive....the more u sleep, the sleepier u'll get.....

online shopping is damn fun......u can take the mall away from the girl, but u'll never take the girl out of shopping....even if it's a virtual mall....=D

it has been 23 long days since i've seen him n chloe....n 1 month since i've seen my parents

no more assignments n presentations, but here comes the quizzez, lab tests, exams.....n coming soon---FINALS!!! all at once....i can't breathe...HELP!!! drowning here....we basically have a quiz/lab test/test every 3 days now....*sigh*
example: last wed, molecular bio quiz. then on saturday, genetics test. tmr (monday), tissue culture lab tests. coming thursday, mol bio test. walau!!!

FB is now officially boring.......

Num 73

2009-08-05T19:15:00.003+08:00

when u first meet a person, first impression counts.......i admit i do often judge a person by the very first impression....

but once u get to know the person, the true colours come out......n i mean cooooooooooooooooooooooooomeeeeeeeesssssssssssss OUT......

BAM!!!!!

right in front of ur face.......

it irritates me when i think abt these ppl......but then again others might think the same abt me....i might not know rite?

haiya...watever la.....waste my energy getting all irritated abt it....
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on another note, i miss home!!!! i miss him!!!! it has been 19 long days...........

p.s : for the past few days i've been eating one meal per day only.....too much work to do, no time to eat..... well, at least i can lose some weight from all these never-ending workload......*sigh* i want Curry mee!!!!

Num 72

2009-08-03T19:38:00.001+08:00

how'z my new blog layout????

cute hor cute hor cute hor.........=P

sorry for not updating as often as i should...i'm have nothing to ramble about.....

TTFN =.=

Num 71

2009-07-30T19:11:00.003+08:00

OMG!!!!!!

i've not been this happy in such a longgggggg time!!!!!

guess what??? guess what????

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalala!!!!!

SCHUMI IS COMING BACKKKKKKKKKKK
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He's schedule to replace massa since massa had a serious fractured skull and coma from last sunday's Hungarian Grand Prix.............i was devastated when i knew that massa got involved in that accident....but behind every bad news, there's an even better news!!!!! =D

i really can't stop smilling coz i'll get to c schumacher racing for a few races =D.........so much for the retirement huh......

but y do i feel like i'm abt to break down deep down inside at the same time????

Num 70

2009-07-27T17:38:00.001+08:00

i predict a nervous breakdown coming soon........

a real bad one.........=_="

Num 69

2009-07-24T11:04:00.004+08:00

dogs are indeed man's best friend.....

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/32101001?gt1=43001#storyContinued

hell, i'm even willing to lose my whole hand for chloe...... she's worth it!

dogs don't judge u, they stay by ur side no matter what .....chloe's the only one who's always happy to c me .....i miss her

Num 68

2009-07-23T20:10:00.009+08:00

argrhhhhhhhhh.....screw my blog la...........make life difficult nia.... a few things to ponder abt before i continue studying for my mid-term tmr....

i hate to choose......... sometimes some things are best being left unsaid.....n some things are best being left unheard...wat u don't know won't kill u......unless a murderer wants to kill u la.....then it would be best for u to know it 1st.... hahaha =D

haiz...mood swings n pms not good for mental health la ........c wat it has done to me?? i merepek teruk-teruk ...........let's c some rainbows

taken near queensbay as well....once upon a time ago

p.s. : y can't kimi my hamster work??

Num 67

2009-07-23T14:29:00.022+08:00

somehow i don't feel comfortable letting ppl read my blog......coz i like to ramble and vent out my frustrations here.....so y am i getting judged on the things i wrote on my own blog?? i'm considering turning it private soon........

i like competitions between peers....i think it's healthy and it makes a person strive harder.....competition can be a positive thing.....yes, i might sometimes compare myself with others....coz if others can do it, then i should be able to do it as well..........no excuses for my poor performance

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coming from st.george's made me competitive....i'm sure some of u girls feel the same.....coz all the girls there were straight A students in UPSR and were specially selected to go there......in fact, georgians are all-rounded and competitive in a way....coz we r so used to winning and getting good grades......after all, we are the best girl school in penang!!!!....right?? remember all those perhimpunan on mondays?? where the headmistress would always give away those certs, prizes and trophies that had been won by the students in national or state 'peraduan' or 'pertandingan' or whatever MSSM or MSSP medals....n OMG who could ever forget our school band, they're awesome!!!!! i used to be so proud whenever someone win something.....almost every student i know has been up there at least once..myself included.......

yeah, i admit i can be jealous at times...especially when it comes to 'kelas terbersih'.......y do u think i was so obsessed in winning 'kelas terbersih' during my F6......it was the trophy and the merit points....i knew some of my classmates needed it....SGGS with strict rules always giving students demerit..ish ish...

the point is SGGS made me take my work and studies seriously.....that is y i'm so particular abt my work quality......i can't stand it when ppl do their work in a lazy manner....SGGS nurtures each student so that they can achieve their full potential....i bet that if i were to come from another school other than SGGS, i would be a different person from what i am today...n i'm happy with myself =)....my english would be a lot worse if it wasn't for SGGS....

the famous clock tower =D

anyway, georgians are awesome (note: myself EXCLUDED!!!!)..... half my peers are now not in malaysia, i.e they r studying elsewhere around the world....Singapore, Australia, US, UK, Rusia....n they r doing very well.....another 25% are in local unis while another 10% have graduated or going to graduate soon....yup, time flies huh.....this leaves the remaining 15% in the private unis around malaysia.....including myself in UTAR (no Choice!!)....older georgians are mostly professionals and a lot of them are Datins and Datos, doing tons of charity works....hello, Dato' Sri Sharizat is a georgian ok... so is Dato' faridah merican if i'm not mistaken...and a lot more in fact....i just dunno their names.........*sigh* i bet ya i'll never become a Datin or a Dato' especially since i'm in the science field...=P but nothing's imposible maaaaaaaaa............

to all my fellow georgian friends reading this, i miss u all dearly....i miss those good old days.....n if u ever doubt yourself even for a moment, just remember our school's slogan.....Aut Viam Inveniam Aut Faciam!!!!!!!! be proud!!! =D

p.s.: i'm writing this to cheer myself up coz i'm in a total emo mood rite now......due to a certain group assignment that i'm not particularly happy abt....let's just say i'm not satisfied/trust the quality of the assignment (mostly grammar mistakes) as i wasn't able to proof-read it first before they submitted it....i 've asked him to let me do so n i waited till late for the soft copy...but alas, nothing!!! whatever la.......

Num 66

2009-07-21T15:54:00.004+08:00

i've just realized i'm in deep shit.........especially after my consultation with Dr. Han....my results were awful last sem n i didn't give a damn abt it till an hour ago......

but i really honestly don't know what went wrong during the finals last sem.....i think the whole thing came down to time management....my time management skills suck, but i didn't make any attempt to change it.......the killer part was the 3 papers in 3 continuos days......

another fact i can't get over is that the weaker students r now doing better while i'm getting worst....=_=" i have a few conclusions on y that's happening but i'm not gonna tell it here...their efforts paid off.....let's just say life is not always fair =(

no matter how hard i tried, it just doesn't seem to pay off.....eg. my test 1 results for molecular bio.....it was actually ok, but compared to how others did, mine was not good....

i'm not going to make any more excuses......n i'll just have to keep on trying harder.....

i'm gonna go cry my eyes off now....bye

Num 65

2009-07-20T16:42:00.007+08:00

i'm back!!!! after a dissappearing act for a week....truth to be told, i have nothing to blog abt, i prefer reading one.......

reading other ppl's blog may sometimes make me jealous.........pretty girl with a handsome bf, pretty girl who dresses nicely, pretty girl who has everything in the world she wishes for....

but then again, i have a perfect man in my life.....n he's the only thing i can brag abt apart from my dog chloe.........yes, i know...i have no life.....so if u dun wanna continue reading abt how perfect my bf is then u better go.............

coz he is so perfect!!!!!

the more i think abt it, the more perfect he seem to be......ok, he may not be the most educated person in the world....but he's polite, kind, generous n FUNNY!!!!! n he respects me n love me for who i am......who else would love a fat girl like me??? sheng sheng la......^^

i overheard a few things abt my friend's bf who asked her to run an errand for him....i can't mention wat it is here.....but it's really stupid....to ask her to do such a thing would be memalukan.....he can just do it himself n it wouldn't be embarrasing for him at all....i can't imagine my man asking me to run such an errand....maybe it's a good thing having an older bf... coz he's sensible......but he can be really silly though =D

anywayzz.........i went to Bon Odori on saturday...n OMG....banyaknya orang.....i couldn't wait to get out of there....but as we were abt to leave, the fireworks came..........* in awe* WOW!!!!!!! it's probably the best i've seen so far.......out of the 3 fireworks we saw together in our 26+ months together.....

that was the best 10 minutes of my life....a perfect moment at that time...to have someone u love, holding u close, n just staring into the dark sky iluminated by the bright n colourful fireworks.....it's this 10 minutes that makes life with him worth it.....it's this 10 minutes that makes all the torturous waiting n anticipation to see him again worth it........

p.s: picture not taken by me..i stole it from dunno who.......^^" ......n for those of u who don't know, that circle thing there is actually a replica of the buah pinang near esplanade.........buah pinang = pulau pinang...yea, wat a way to waste the public's money.....FYI, it was built when BN was still ruling.....

p.p.s: just in case u r wondering, my bf is not an 40-year-old man.....he's still very young, just older than me

Num 64

2009-07-12T22:15:00.003+08:00

i dun want the weekends to finishhhhhhhh......

now i have to complete 3 reports and an assignment..*sigh*

i want the time to stop ticking at yesterday.........

ps: y is my next-door-hsemate singing MJ's song with her coursemates?? must be for some assignment..damnit...i want an assignment where i can sing oso.........ish

Num 63

2009-07-09T23:22:00.002+08:00

just came back from my class bbq/steamboat

DAMN FUN !!!!!

n DAMN FULL!!!!

going back to pg tmr..........

can't wait!!!!!!

*hophophophophophop* *skipskipskipskip*

OPTIMUS PRIME!!!! BUMBLEBEE!!!!! SHENG SHENG!!!!!!! here i come..........

Num 62

2009-07-07T15:18:00.001+08:00

if i were to wait any longer, i would die!!!!!!!

no, i'm not talking abt seeing my bf again..........

I'M TALKING ABT SEEING OPTIMUS PRIME ON THE CINEMA SCREEN!!!!!

Num 61

2009-07-06T21:47:00.002+08:00

the things he do

makes me love him even more

even when i'm angry

even when he's wrong

my guy is so soft at heart

n only i know how soft it it.....

it has been 20 long days

looking forward to friday.....

Num 60-------READ THIS!!!!!

2009-07-05T20:06:00.003+08:00

what has gone wrong with humans these days........

read this......http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/7/5/nation/4260041&sec=nation

it's heart-wrenching.....what did these ppl do to get this kind of treatment?? they r just humans like us, maybe they r disabled but they don't deserve this at all.....

FUCK THOSE STUPID PPL WHO DID THIS TO THEM!!!!!!!!

i've dun usually use the 'word'...but this is a special occasion....

may the ppl who did this to them rot in hell kao kao!!!!!!!!

Num 59

2009-07-03T22:50:00.004+08:00

ish...i feel so stupid n immature right now.......

anyway, let's forget abt it n let me show u some rainbows.....=P

taken near queensbay........once upon a time ago

Num 58

2009-07-03T08:15:00.004+08:00

NO RAINBOW N NO BUTTERFLIES HERE!!!!

ANGIE IS IN A BAD MOOD!!!!

GET AWAY AS FAR AS U CAN!!!!!!
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FML!!! FML!!!! FML!!!! FML!!!

WHAT A "GREAT" START TO MY DAY!!!!!

STUPID BUS SERVICES!!!!

I'M NEVER EVER GONNA ASK FOR HELP COZ NO ONE EVER OFFERS ANY HELP!!!

THIS IS NOT PMS SPEAKING K....IT'S STILL EARLY IN THE MONTH!!!!

MUM, I NEED MY CAR HERE!!!!!

=(

Num 57

2009-07-02T20:33:00.007+08:00

hahaha..two entries in one night...but i can't help posting this up....my mum is so cute......

Message from Chloe's mummy‏

From: Pat Lim (pat_ng@yahoo.com)
Sent: Tuesday, 30 Jun, 2009 2: 30 PM
To: taurus_ann@hotmail.com

Dear Tua Pui,
Chloe's mummy is waiting for the list of company
Regards
Chloe's Mummy

that's how my mum or should i say, chloe's mum emails me........oh ya, she calls me tua pui =_="

Num 56

2009-07-02T19:33:00.005+08:00

so many things r happening to the ppl around me....so many different episodes of dramas surrounding me....n i dun actually know wat's really happening...nor do i intend to know what's really going on.....

coz once u drown in the situation, there's no way of telling when u'll resurface again.....

let's say la...A not talking to B, B not talking to C, C not talking to D, D not talking to E, ------continues to person Z, n Z not talking to A.....

it's very difficult u know, considering the fact that the class is smaller in size compared to other courses....so once u stop interacting with one another, it can get quite tense in some situations....

all these actually made me think....
have i ever offended anyone before without realizing it??
have i said anything that hurts others without intending to do so???

i honestly don't know....coz all these while, i remained low-key n quiet........but i do say some hurtful things in my blog whenever i'm angry.... whatever that i've said, i meant it at that time......but once my anger is over, all those things that i've said seemed so silly n stupid.....
eg. my last entry abt my assignments....sure, i was angry at the quality of work done by others....but after submission, it doesn't even matter anymore.....we passed up a good work....*i think*

so if i've done anything or said anything to the ppl out there that might have hurt ur feelings, i'm sorry..........

i'll try not to talk bad abt others here....i've learn from other ppl's mistakes......so from now onwards, i'll blog abt cute actors that makes my heart skip a beat (though they don't know me)....nice yummy food that i ate (though i've not eaten a nice nice meal in a while).....places i've been to (though i've not been anywhere else other than classes-room-classes-room....), how i miss everyone back in penang.....n lastly abt pretty rainbows n butterflies =_=" oh...oso i'll ramble n ramble n ramble.........useless ramblings!

I MWISSSSSSSSSS MY MUMMY!!!! DADDY!!!! NINI!!!!! CHLOE!!!!! N SHENG!!!!!! =(

side note: i think i've never actually hurt anyone before in my life...not that i know la....maybe someplace somewhere someone holds a grudge against me....someone who's waiting to 'balas dendam' n kill me in my sleep......take out all my organs n sew me back....n no one here will ever know if i'm dead, coz no one really cares actually........n i'll slowly rot in my room till my next door hsemates smell something funky....calls the police but cannot identify my body...coz some indonesian-construction guys had stolen my IC...n so they'll put me in the morgue.......

so in case u wondering where i am, find me in the morgue...........but then hor...u have to find out yourself which morgue i'm at...coz i'm dead n i can't tell u that........

THE END!!!!!

told ya i ramble

Num 55

2009-06-28T17:08:00.003+08:00

WTF!!!! FML!!!! WTH!!!

PPL ALWAYS TAKE ME FOR GRANTED...PASS ME EVERYTHING TO EDIT, I'M FINE WITH IT......BUT TO PASS UNCOMPLETE WORK FOR ME IS LIKE TELLING ME TO DO ALL........SO

I MIGHT AS WELL BE DOING THE WHOLE THING BY MYSELF...N PUT MY NAME ON IT!!!!

ps: this is temporary madness only...i'll be OK after this........SORRY!

Num 54 - The Ed Westwick post

2009-06-27T22:05:00.013+08:00

hey, i'm back!!!!!

plz go away if u can't bear to read abt my infatuation n adoration for Ed Westwick aka Chuck Bass......... i warned u d ha......=_="

i have no idea y i'm always attracted to british guys....y oh y oh y??? their accent? their manners? oh maybe it's coz british guys have better genes??? =)

u c...there's my 1st love lee ryan, then there's rob pattz, n now ed westwick......n they r all bad boys.....

just so u know, i'm not so into Rob Pattinson anymore...... maybe it's coz Ed is so much better n way hotter....ooooh, the way he talks makes my heart skip a beat...n his half-smile-half-smirk makes my heart melt like a butter........ aahhhhhhhhhhh......the way he say 'i love you' to blair in the last episode makes me go aaaaaaaaawwwwwwww

*angie melting.........*

i'm crazy rite?? but i have my reasons k.........

i mean, how can i say 'no' to this face???? aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh...........

n he dresses so well..........so dashing......*drools*

plus, he has my teeth.....look look...the-bunny-teeth-with-a-gap-in-the-middle.....teehee!!! =D

once again, how can i say 'no' to this face????

ps: i dreamt abt him 2 days in a row....i'm no lying k....=_="

Num 53

2009-06-18T20:56:00.009+08:00

believe it or not....i just did what i deemed to be the most ''stupidest' thing i've done so far.....

I CALLED A TUTOR 'STUPID' IN FRONT OF HIS FACE!!!!!

BUT then again, i did not regret it at all.....he was really stupid...n really annoying. that guy is like the rudest tutor i've met in my whole entire existence!!!!!!!!! so he deserved it.....

but i've gotta admit, i was scared as hell when that word slipped out of my mouth.....

what happened was something like this :

- he came late to class.....
- 2 groups were presenting their tutorial homework in class as usual...n he was busy texting behind.........STUPIAK!!
- after abt 15 mins, he locked the door.....who the hell does that? STUPIAK!!!!
- after presentation, he kinda commented on the fact that the presentors weren't wearing any formal attire....hello???????? u didn't mention anything abt that coz this was after all just a normal presentation on our homework...not an assignment presentation....STUPIAK!!!!
- then he commented that after 15 mins of class, he's gonna close the door....coz he won't allow the late students to come in........DOUBLE STANDARD GUY!!!!! STUPIAK STUPIAK STUPIAK!!!! he himself was late ok....

so, my anger was like building up since the beginning of class...n upon hearing that i pun mumbled the word 'stupid'.........or at least i thought i mumbled it, coz the word came out from my mouth loud n clear......the class was quiet, so everyone obviously heard it =_=" hehe.......n he said

" WHO SAY STUPID? "

as nervous as i was, i suprisingly managed to reply him coolly n casually...........

" Oh.....i dropped my eraser on the floor."

hahahahaaaaaaaaaahahahaaa........he didn't reply anything after that.....maybe he believed me, or maybe he knew i was referring to him n he didn't dare to go AGAINST me....muahahahahaha...

or maybe deep down inside, he's gonna target me for the rest of the semester....die la if like that....

after class, my classmates began asking me abt my sudden outburst.....some really believed it was abt my eraser but others knew that i was 'stupiaking' that stupid guy coz they saw my eraser.... hahahaha....

well, at least i got lots of compliments from my actions.....my classmates were glad someone dared to do speak up to that guy....i did wat everyone else wanted to do, but did not dare to do it.....the whole situation was kinda........LIBERATING!!!!!!

n for once i did something really wrong without feeling guilty abt it......ohhhhhhh, how i've changed...i'm becoming more erm.....honest????

hahahaha......well, i guess i'll have to find out soon if he holds a grudge against me....

Num 52

2009-06-13T16:38:00.002+08:00

tata sheng sheng....c u in 6 days....6 long dreadful days for me...........

i'll always miss u......even if it's just for a day.....

Num 51

2009-06-11T17:25:00.002+08:00

if only i could wipe off the smug on that guy's face...........urghhhhhhh.....f**king annoying...he probably thinks that he's the king of the world...since no one else can possibly beat him....

but then again, he deserves to have that huge smug on his face....coz he is the best n he deserves it...

Num 50

2009-06-10T21:33:00.003+08:00

i'm in such a dillema right now..........

for once, i dun feel like going back to penang this weekend....due to some reasons la..teehee

n for once, my parents....of all days, chose to go to thailand this weekend....*sigh*

n they want me back to babysit chloe...fyi, chloe's my dog...*sigh*

but i dun wanna babysit this weekend n i dun wanna go back....*sigh*

but at the same time, they deserve some vacation away....

as a good daughter, should i stay here for my own benefit or should i give my parents a well-deserved holidays by going back???

i guess the answer is obvious....n yet deep down inside, i really dun wanna go back.....i've been looking forward to this friday for such a long time...n it's gonna be such a bummer that i have to cancel everything...........*SIGH*

wat should i do laaaaaaaaaa???

Num 49

2009-06-08T23:23:00.004+08:00

i'm gonna start numbering my posts coz i'm horrible at giving title to my posts.........

1st week has gone by slowly....classes r okay...at least for now

currently, in week 2......i'm still free....thus, i'm here writting crap

the weather sangat teruklah............it's like living in a sauna everyday.....

that's all for now.........

i just felt like writing something...

p.s : can't wait till it's friday!!!

serious problem...

2009-06-02T21:01:00.006+08:00

i'm crazy n i have a serious addiction problem going on......THE TWILIGHT SAGA...

i hereby quote..... 'it's like my own personal brand of heroin'........that's how i felt towards the books, movies n characters....i'm like seriously hooked on everything involving the twilight saga....

my obsessions started during my finals last sem....i was so tired from studying, i decided to kacau my sis downstairs.....n it so happens that she was watching twilight on pps......at that time, the movie had already been out for almost a year........i wasn't really interested in it n i couldn't understand y everyone was crazy over it...those crazy girls shown on E! shouting n screaming over robert pattinson...bimbos i thought.....=P

yea, sure robpattz-cedric diggory was cute on harry potter but then i preferred oliver wood on harry potter......no big deal, twilight was probably another superficial love story...y bother..... BOY, WAS I WRONG..............i sat there watching half of the movie with my sis n when it was finished, i repeated the whole movie again.......

i was then i knew...........i'm ADDICTED!!!! DASH UNDERSCORE DASH SWEAT SWEAT SWEAT!!!

so once my sem break started, i began reading the books one by one by one......i've just finished the last book two hours ago.......

DAMN, EDWARD's HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm actually atracted to the character of Edward Cullen more than i'm atrracted to robpattz.......now, i'm one of those bimbo girls who has fallen head-over-heels for EDWARD CULLEN aka ROBPATTZ.........arghhhhhhhh, how i wished i was bella..... ....oh, edward, can u please turn me into one????

*sigh......begins dreaming n drooling*

i seriously can't wait for the new installment of new moon in november.............wtv (wat the vampire)!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have to wait another 6 months???? i hyperventilate just by watching the trailer......crazy right????

n now i'm officially bored as i dun have anything else to read....no more 4-in-the-morning-reading-twilight-newmoon-eclipse-breakingdawn anymore............life is boring now......so i guess i'll probably have to spend my time searching about things related to twilight then......

if i were to have a daughter in the future, i'll call her isabella....or if i have a son, i'll call him edward.... *starts dreaming again*

in many ways, sheng is exactly like edward....minus the fact that he's a vampire of course, n obviously he's not as smart as edward (but that's coz edward has all the time in the world to submerged himself in knowledge)....n also minus the fact that he's english name is not edward ..............but other than that, my own vampire is just as gentle, kind n HOT as edward cullen .........okok, maybe he don't have the abs like robpattz, but my own vampire is still damn fit n damn fine.........n i wouldn't trade him with anything else in the world!!!!

told ya i'm crazy...blame the stupid weather for making me crazeeeeee......

Back Again!!

2009-05-31T18:00:00.003+08:00

so i'm back at kampar again for another sem..........n i'm still in the lazy mood....3 weeks is NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!!!

1415 is getting quieter each sem...last sem, xiao pig n pennie moved out.....this sem, siew ling n arlene are away for their internship...so the house is now 'invaded' by unknown juniors....this means that there'll be less hokkien-conversations n more mandarin-conversations for me.....n this means that i'll be lonelier than ever.....*sigh*

once again, it was hard to say goodbye to sheng sheng....i've grown so attached to him, it's like parting away with half of my soul.....one thing i regret is that i'll be missing his birthday tmr =(

also, i'll miss two of my sisters....chloe, the michevious lil' dog-sis of mine.....she's so cute, i can stare at her the whole day.....n of course, nini, who is now at setapak.....as annoying as she may be...she's my best friend........i think i've already rambled abt her in an earlier post last month....n i don't intend to start the whole emo-episode again.......so this sem, instead of going back pg often, i'll be going down to kl.........

anyway, new sem....new resolution.....i will study so hard, my brain will expand till my head size doubles.....less going back to penang.....no last minute revision, though it's inevitable in the end......=P

pardon my poor english........it's getting worst......*sigh*

2009-05-12T17:20:00.003+08:00

Forgive my short posts......i'm too lazy..........it's the holidays!!! n i'm too lazy to bother abt anything...i just laze around.....

READING TWILIGHT SAGA BOOKS!!!!!! TEEHEEEEEEEEEE........it has been a while since i read anything other than my revision books...very relaxing =)

PS: EDWARD CULLEN..PLZ CHOOSE ME INSTEAD OF BELLE....SUCK MY BLOOD N MAKE A VAMPIRE!!! =_="

NO.2

2009-05-12T17:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY SECOND ANNIVERSARY SHENG SHENG!!!!!!

MMMUAKKS!!!!

=_="

2009-05-07T11:37:00.000+08:00

i can't decide on whether i should laugh or cry

shoot me plz

2009-05-06T11:40:00.003+08:00

i'm really gonna be in serious sh*t la....................

wat's wrong with me?????

y can't every paper be like HR paper...

well, at least tmr's the last paper.....

n then i'm going back.....

home sweet home!!!!!

but soon i have to face the results!!!!

A Series of Unfortunate Events

2009-05-05T11:48:00.004+08:00

i'm sooooooooooo dead!!! i had the worst day ever!!!! what a series of unfortunate events........n to top it all off...i had a hard time on the paper while everyone else was satisfied with the questions...

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME???

oh pls God......give me the best u can.......i've already done my part n tried my best....so plz dun fail me.....i need to maintain my cgpa....it was good the last sem, but i think this sem, there'll be a very big huge drastic decrease.....=(

die ler.....how to prove to me parents then?? i still need to show them that i can juggle both studies n relationship together.......

have to strive harder for the next two days...n then pray my way to a better results during the sem break........*sigh*

Untitled~

2009-05-04T02:40:00.008+08:00

it's 3.15 am...obviously it's an emo post..either read it or hit the exit button.....

tat's it...my small sis had ended her foundation studies here at kampar...she'll be going to setapak the following sem for her degree....

my parents came to fetch her today n brought her things down to kl....then the three of them went back to penang....after my finals on the 7th, i'll be going back as well....n after 3 weeks of sem break, we'll start a new sem....

the thing is i'm gonna miss her once the new sem starts in june....suprise huh?? i know we sometimes dun get along well, but tat's wat sisters do!!!! we fight...n at the end of the day, everything's back to normal.....

honestly speaking, my sis is the closest thing i have here at kampar....she's the one that keeps me sane....wat i mean is that at the end of the day, i know that i can depend on my sis....when i'm bored, i just pop my head downstairs n shout at her to ask wat's she doing.....or i'll go downstairs to kacau her n maybe have a chat.....just so u know, she's living downstairs while i live upstairs on the 2nd floor...

i owe her so much.....she's the one that provides me dinner every nite for the past year.... coz i seldom go out to eat.....there's more actually, but at this point i can't think of any....

we know so much of each other's secret...it's amazing...........=)

i've never been a social n outgoing person, whereas nini is totally the opposite..she's outgoing n street-wise.....which explains y we complement each other so well.....

the bottom line is..........now that she's moving to kl the next sem, i dun have anyone to rely on anymore....someone to keep me accompanied....someone to gossip with....someone to yell at... someone to watch las vegas with.....or late night movie sessions....

dun ask me abt my coursemates or housemates....thay are all nice people..n i'm glad to know them....but i don't have any similarities with them....none whom i can share my interests with...conversations always revolve around the same thing.....i guess it's because of different backgrounds....

even with sheng sheng, i can't talk abt those things that i talked with my sis....

with all the assignments, quizzes, tests, exams, n reports, life can be stressful n boring....n life can even be tougher when u r alone.....i feel lonely every single night....

there's not a single person in this world whom i can trust more or rely than my sis.....

ps: i'm still having my finals...but this is affecting me hard....no drive to study at this point....i hope tomorrow's a better day...=)

DONE!!!!

2009-04-28T14:54:00.014+08:00

*UPDATED*

~~BIOCHEMISTRY AND CELL METABOLISM~~
~~ORGANISATION AND HUMAN RESOURCE~~
~~PHYSIOLOGY~~
~~MICROBIOLOGY~~
~~PRINCIPLES OF BIOTECHNOLOGY~~

5 DOWN NO MORE TO GO!!!!!!

in 10 days time, i'll be outta here......
i can't wait to get out of this place!!!!
coz me lurveeeeeee penang.....

ps: how do ppl make the strikethrough thingy for their words???...i mean like, put a line through a particular word....i just wanna cancel the 1st paper off...to show that it's done!!! =_=" haiz nvm la...
pps: how'z my new blog layout?

Frustrated

2009-04-27T03:42:00.004+08:00

okay...once again this is a rambling....

n i'm gonna sound shallow and may look like some sour grape.......

y do i have to spend hours n days reading just a few chapters when others can take just a few hours to read a subject for their finals???
i'm referring to my housemates.....she's always out n when she's at home, she be on fb.....
n she took a while to read for her paper only.....
what paper is she taking tmr, u may ask???
COLOUR STUDIES!!!!!

this is f*cking unfair.............COLOUR STUDIES......the study of colours...red mixes with blue to get purple..........cold and hot colours.....
she asked me if i have a purple colour pencil abt 2 hrs ago.....which probably means that there will be some colouring for finals!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!

while others colour their way to an 'A'........ i have to slave over Biochemistry n memorizes all possible pathway....glycolysis, gluconeogenesis, glycogenolysis, glycogenesis, cholesterol biosynthesis, pentose phosphate pathway n bla bla bla...........with the 1001 enzymes involved....

sorry for my immature rambling....i guess it must be due to stress.. biochem paper is on tues n i'm only abt 30% ready for this paper.....

as for the other papers....dun even talk abt em'......i haven't touched my microb revision!!!

I'M IN SERIOUS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

R-A-N-D-O-M P-I-C-S

2009-04-15T21:49:00.011+08:00

Yup...=) somehow i feel like uploading some pics...though i've mention before that i dun upload pics........

THE PICS ARE RANDOM...IT CAN BE ABOUT ANYTHING....

but mostly it reflects my life and what i love the most.....awwwww.....

.....

DAMN...it takes forever to do this.....hold on ya.....

.....

....

#$@%$^&*(()$!#$@#$%&**$$!!!!!

.....

HERE GOES!!!!!!!!!!

looks yummy ain't it??? hehehe....

that's what my dad do as a living.......basically, he works with food.....=D......n before u jump to any conclusion as y i'm so fat....he NEVER cooks for his family *sob sob*......so i never get to eat his cooking.........

that's my parents in thailand....while they were on their once-every-three-months-vacation....i dun say this often...but i love them so much *hugs*

NEXT!!!!! more random things abt me.........

the view of the back alley from my room at kampar..........

i love this......shows that i'm his baby!!! *shy*

my study table.......filled with all the things he gave me....that's his doraemon, accompanying me while i study....next to it is Michael Schumacher's Ferrari 248 given to me for my birthday last year (i love this the most).....there's another smaller model of Felipe Massa's F2007....others include Stitch, some Super Mario mushroom thingy, bubble pop thingy (the yellow thingy), keychain, my Christmas Swatch Watch, n our pic!!!! etc etc etc....this pic was taken in March...there's more now...=D

guess what's this????

my valentine's day present.........remember my earlier blog abt him suprising me here at kampar...this is it!!

the long road ahead.....this was taken last week....sheng sheng came to fetch me back from kampar....just for fun! =D

his sunnies.......he looks funny wearing it ehehe but that's for me to know....n that's the reflection of him driving ^^

at the petrol station with me wearing his sunnies.....n that's him behind =_="

us again.....the main purpose of the pic is to secretly take his pic.....=_="

there u go.......the bf driving....=D

NEXT!!!!!!

may i introduce to u....chloe.....this is how she looks like when she's bored...look to the left n u can c one of her 4 current tennis balls....she has 6 actually,but i kept 2 new ones for the future, just in case =D

just so u know......she's my mum favourite daughter..my mum pampers her to the max!! *sigh*

ok...this is chloe's latest Babolat tennis ball....it's HUGE!!!! the size of a volley ball....well, u can't exactly c how big it is here as it's a close-up...but it's huge...i swear......believe me...sheng sheng was so thoughtful, he gave it to her.....got it from the shop after they changed the window display =D i love this ball so much i kept it to myself... occasionally i'll let chloe play with it...

WELL...........i guess this is it for now!!!! total time taken: 2 hours.....i'm suppose to study for my finals in two weeks time ler.........ish ish ish, now i know y i dun upload pics in the first place........

ps: i'm going back pg tmr.....for my bean sprout chicken rice, dry bak kut teh, nasi lemak from the kopitiam downstairs, mcd, kimberly street's curry mee n lots more......... teehee =P......who cares if i'll grow fatter..... "i rather die early"-------quoted from dr.han!!! =D

2009-04-13T00:19:00.004+08:00

EAT THE END OF THE DAY.....

NOTHING ELSE'S MATTER....

I STILL HAVE MY FAMILY N HIM....

I'LL STRIVE HARDER.....

WELL, GUESS I MUST GO BACK TO THE REPORTS NOW!!

=)

BEFORE AND AFTER

2009-04-12T23:58:00.006+08:00

THIS IS GETTING MORE RIDICULOUS EACH MINUTE....3RD POST OF THE NITE.. WTH!

2 YEARS BEFORE....
I WAS THIS HAPPY, CARE-FREE, NERDY N HARDWORKING, BUBBLY PERSON.....
I SING TO MYSELF ALL THE TIME....
SURROUNDED BY LOVING FAMILY, GOOD FRIENDS, GOOD FOOD, N GOOD LIFE!

2 YEARS AFTER.....
I'M THIS SAD, EMO, CRYING, NERDY BUT LAZY, NON-SOCIAL PERSON....
WITH NO DRIVE AND ENERGY TO GO ON ANYMORE....
N I BARELY SING ANYMORE......
SURROUNDED BY FOUR EMPTY WHITE WALLS, SELFISH PEOPLE, LACK OF NUTRITION, N NO LIFE!!!!

WHAT HAPPENED??

I COULD HAVE....

2009-04-12T22:49:00.005+08:00

I COULD HAVE SPEND MORE TIME IN BED TODAY

I COULD HAVE WATCH MORE TV TODAY

I COULD HAVE LAZE AROUND AT HOME

I COULD HAVE GONE SHOPPING WITH SIS TODAY

I COULD HAVE PLAYED WITH CHLOE MORE TODAY

I COULD HAVE FIND SHENG SHENG N HAVE LUNCH WITH HIM DURING HIS BREAK TIME

I COULD HAVE HAVE A BIG BOWL OF CURRY MEE N WAN TAN MEE WITH SHENG SHENG FOR SUPPER RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT.......

IF DR.CHOO WAS TO LET US KNOW EARLIER THAT THE CLASS TMR WILL BE CANCELED!!!!!!!!

NO-TITLE

2009-04-12T15:36:00.004+08:00

IT'S BACK TO REALITY AFTER SPENDING NEARLY TWO WHOLE DAYS WITH HIM........
IT'S BACK TO BORING OLD REPORTS, LUCKILY THE LAST 2 FOR THIS SEM...
BUT NOW, IT'S NEARLY TIME FOR THE FINALS, IN TWO WEEKS TIME...

BUT ALL I DO IS CONSTANTLY THINKING ABOUT HIM....
EVERYTIME I SAY GOODBYE, I'LL TURN INTO THIS EMO-CRYING-PERSON....

ALTHOUGH MY CASE IS NOT REALLY THAT EXTREME....
AS IN WE'RE STILL LIVING IN THE SAME COUNTRY, N NOT SEPARATED BY THE OCEAN.....
I STILL NEED HIM BADLY.....
TO LOOK AT HIS GENTLE SMILE N TO HOLD HIS HAND....
THE WAY HE KISSES THE BACK OF MY HAND.....
SIMPLY, THE WAY HE HUG N KISSES ME....
I MISS HIS WARMTH AND COMFORT EVERY SINGLE DAY....
EVERYTHING FEEL SO RIGHT N NOTHING ELSE'S MATTER...
N THE EARTH JUST STOOD STILL......

URGHHHH....HOW I ENVY THOSE WHO GETS TO SEE THEIR LOVED ONES EVERYDAY...

I MISS SHENG SHENG SO MUCH.....=(

UPDATES

2009-04-03T16:32:00.008+08:00

this is a very very very random blog...i talk abt everything..... BEWARE!!!!

i'm just to lazy too blog......haiz.....finished two tests this week n i have 4 reports to complete by next wednesday!!!! crazy laaa.....the lecturers r getting crazier each day i tell u.......fyi, it's 3 weeks till the finals.....n we still have tons of reports to do.........crazy crazy crazy.....*sigh*

i tried n tried to salvage my coursework marks for my 4 core subjects but sadly, not much can be done at this point....it's better now but still VERY TERUK =( .....it's nearly week 13, so i guess it's a bit too late.... *sigh*

BTW.......Malaysian GP this weekend =( sadly, i won't be able to watch the race this weekend coz i'm STUCK here at kampar with my 4 stupid reports..... so i'll have to depend on the live timing through the official website.......BUT THE INTERNET LINE LOUSY LA THESE FEW DAYS!!!!!!!! =( F1 is the only thing that keeps me sane here n i dun get to enjoy it this weekend.....so be prepare to face a cranky moody crazy n sleepy Angie next week...... *sigh*

on the good side, Practice 2 just finished....KIMI N FELIPE came in 1st n 2nd..... hehehhehehehehhehehehhhhhhhheheheheh =D.......hope they qualify the same tmr....they deserve it coz they didn't even finish the race last week at Australia..... *sigh*

..........

RANDOMness ALERT !!!!!
Ohh, how i love kimi n felipe + sheng =) + daddy + mummy + chloe + sis
(but only when she's not rude to me)........i miss sheng n chloe the most though!!! ;_; as usual, i'll be on my emo mode on friday nights and the whole of saturday when i'm in kampar during the weekends..........*cries loudly*

i know i know......it's very sweet of me to miss the bf *wink wink* .....but if u think that it's a lil' silly to miss the dog....u'r wrong.....she's part of the family k....

on another note--------------> ur good friend, Mr. Najib is our 6th PM of Malaysia =_=".......i have tons of things to say abt him, but it's a lil' unappropriate........i think u know what i'm saying here rite??? *sigh*

ps : i sigh too much these days..........gtg go take my afternoon nap....i'm getting cranky......={
pps: I HATE COCKROACHES n MAGGOTS!!!!!

WOW!!!

2009-03-29T21:24:00.003+08:00

wow!!! brawn gp won 1st n 2nd...something i would never thought of....especially since this is the 1st race of the season....their achivement was amazing....i'm struck with awe...wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! 1 month ago, they weren't even sure if they would be able to race again n now....WOW!!!!!

that ross brawn guy is really something la.....when he was at ferrari with schumi, ferrari n schumi kept on winning n winning.....n now he bought over honda n named it brawn gp...n look wat happened......

too bad my kimi n felipe din finish the race........huhhuhu T.T......but at least hamilton din win =P

CONGRATS BRAWN GP!!!!! u guys deserve it!!!!!!

IT'S BACK!!!!

2009-03-25T21:59:00.007+08:00

I CAN'T BARELY CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT...HENCE, I'M GONNA WRITE IN CAPITAL LETTERS TODAY!!!!

F1 IS BACKKKKKKKKKKKKK

FERRARI IS BACCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKK

KIMI, FELIPE N ME,

WE'RE BACKKKKKKKKKKK

WITH

....

NEW RULES AND REGULATIONS

HE-WHO-GETS-THE-MOST-FIRST-PLACE-FINISHING-GETS-IT-ALL

....

NEW TEAMS

THANKS TO ROSS BRAWN WHO SAVED THE HONDA TEAM

N SAVED BUTTON N BARICHELLO FROM BEING JOBLESS =D

...

NEW DRIVERS

ERRRRR........THIS I'M NOT SO SURE

THE TIMING IS JUST PURRRRRRRRFECTTTTT!!!!

I'M GOING BACK THIS WEEKEND!!!

N IT SO HAPPENS THAT THE FIRST RACE IS THIS WEEKEND!!!

I'VE BEEN SO BUSY THIS FEW WEEKS, I'VE FORGOTTEN THAT THE AUSTRALIAN GRAND PRIX IS THIS WEEKEND!!!!

LUCKY ME!!!!!

I CHOSE THE CORRECT WEEKEND TO GO BACK!!!

F1 GIVES ME THE ADRENALINE RUSH!!!

I LURVEEEEEEEE IT!!!!

I LURRVEEEEEEEEEEEE FERRARI IN PARTICULAR!!!!!

*jumps up n down*

2009 WILL BE A BETTER YEAR FOR FERRARI!!!

WE'RE GONNA KICK MCLAREN'S ASS!!!!

MASSA N RAIKKONEN ARE GONNA KICK HAMILTON'S ASS!!!

* Hamilton runs back crying to gf Nicole of PCD* (isn't she too old for him)

AT THE END OF THE SEASON, WE'RE GONNA RETAIN THE CONSTRUCTOR'S CHAMPIONSHIP

N SNATCH THE DRIVER'S CHAMPIONSHIP!!!!

2009-03-25T21:28:00.003+08:00

i WANT THIS!!!!!! =D

N i WANT THIS AS WELL!!!!!!!!!! it's so cute....anyone seen it anywhere??

sigh

2009-03-23T15:45:00.003+08:00

y am i doing so badly in all my mid-terms?? it's like the harder i try, the worst it becomes.....some ppl can just simply flip through the notes the night before and end up scoring so high....=(

i'm scoring half of what i used to score last sem....yep, tat's how serious my current situation is....
*sigh*

i sometimes wonder if i had chosen the wrong field....when it comes to elective subjects, i'll do well...n by well, i mean i'll nail those subjects....fyi i scored 98.8 on OHR....probably because it's mostly related to opinions and common sense and writing skills, which i prefer any time of the day....

with science, it's all about the process, the details n bla bla bla....i can be so clueless in class sometimes........these are all the things that i basically don't care abt anymore....maybe it's because of all the reports that i've been doing...i'm sick of it!!!!

Hunger

2009-03-22T15:37:00.005+08:00

i'm hungry......my hunger is killing me.....i'm in the midst of completing my 3 reports....i haven't had a proper meal in 3 days.....=(

there's so much i'm craving for right now.....it's like i'm pregnant......

let's c.....
--roast chicken....a quarter of chicken each from nando's & dave deli's & kenny rogers
--mcd....i want twister fries though it's not CNY n chicken foldover...=(
--kfc......two pieces of the original +the mashed potatoes + coleslaw
-- junk food.....ice-cream , potato chips (Mister potato in particular)
--all the hawker food in penang....curry mee, hokkien mee, wan tan mee, loh bak, char koay teow --dimsum
--steamboat
--japanese, italian
--nasi kandar. subaidah's after 10pm nasi lemak
--chili's or tgi's...i need some good food.....big portion ones

huhu....kampar is the most miserable place in the world.....no good food except MyFC (a parody of kfc).....n MyFC recently burned down =_="...i wonder if they have already fixed it....it's been a while since i went out for dinner...ok la...i admit...my social life sucks la....i have only been out for dinner 3 times this semester..n it's already Week 11 now....pathetic me....i blame it all on Ms. Ass Teo Kah Cheng................=(

ps: any food sounds good to me right now....even plain white bread sounds good to me
pps: i rather die of high cholesterol than die of hunger..........=(

A Prayer

2009-03-19T20:20:00.005+08:00

Dear God,

PLEASE DON'T CHANGE MY MARKS. I REALLY HOPE THAT MY OHR MID-TERM MARKS OF 39.5/40 IS NOT A TYPO ERROR. FOR ONCE, I WOULD LIKE TO SHOW TAT SMART KID THAT HE'S NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN DO IT. FYI HE GOT 27/40, WHICH SHOCKED EVERYONE.......

i've always felt that he looks down on me....ok so we don't talk much...maybe it's because i don't talk much mandarin n his english is so-so only.....so wat??? that barrier doesn't stop me n my bf.....y do the smart bunch of kids stick together?? *sigh*

ps : i really really hope it's for real.....coz i put a lot of effort in my OHR mid-term...

From Angie